How does knowing someone on drugs affect you personally??

Canada
March 20, 2007 7:03pm CST
This has been on my mind ALOT in the past few months, in 2001 in the summertime my best friend OD, it was crack that killed her. I saw her the night before while she was high on crack, it was a bad scene.She would not answer her door & i knew she was there alone, i got in the back door & found her sitting there, alone, no music,or t.v. on. Her pupils were huge & glassy, she was sweating like crazy & her skin tone was gray. I have a nursing background so i knew something was wrong with her, i asked her to come with me( so i could grt her to a hospital). She refused to leave the room, she was paranoid while she was high. I could not phone anyone or call 911 because there was no phone in her house,even if i had phoned 911 she would have refused treatment. So i stayed with & looked after her until she came down which was a few hours, she was OK when i left her, that was the last time i saw her alive...... About a day later i get this confusing message from Paul, he telling me something bad had happened to Lianne. I thought, oh great she got herself arrested again! I got ahold of Paul & met him at Lianne's. What a mess!!! It turned out that the next morning,after i left Lianne. She got up to answer the door & collasped, her boyfriend had a neighor called 911, in the meantime her boyfriend started CPR on Lianne(she said something about her heart) When 911 arrived, they took over doing CPR, and pulled out all kinds of tubing to intube Lianne. On the way to hospital she stopped breathing, the paramedics got her going again for a few mins but it was all in vain......she died before getting to the hospital. Her death affected me soooo much, she was my best friend for over 10 years. During that time i saw her go from drinking, doing coke then finally crack. I had a hard time being friends with her & would not see/speak to her for months a a time. She also had a child,a boy who only saw his mother, high or going through withdrawl when she could not see the dope man. I can to begin to tell you or explain what her life/death did to me, i must have been crazy being friends with a addict. One good thing though, Lianne told me "never do crack" ironic come from a addict..... I hate drugs, i hate what they do, how drugs can take someone & suck the soul out of a person, ruin relationships. YUCK!! I just realized i have written a small noval, i'll shut up now!
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