Who are You?

Philippines
March 21, 2007 1:12am CST
There are some people I know who can't shooting right through their hips. I mean they're saying this and that about me. That was confusing. I often ask myself if there's a hint of truth in whatever they say. There are some talks about me being a lesbian. Probably that started when I began to distance myself with boys and men. I hardly ever have a crush on any guys these days, and even if I have, I will just let them go and mind their own business. I mean I don't really stare at them or insinuate that they're handsome. In fact, I don't look at them when they pass my way. I don't see the point of getting so hyped or excited at men. They're all the same. Some are nice, others are jerk. As for women, I do look at their legs and faces. I find them attractive and sexy. But I am always green with envy. So, I used to say that well, attitude is much more important than beauty. I have a plan to apply for the police department. So that gives them another weapon. I often care for my students, men, women and children alike. I don't see them in a different light. That makes people wonder do I ever feel something special for anyone? I have never had a boyfriend, and that makes them all the more suspicious about my identity. I keep asking myself who I am, why I'm alone, why aren't there people who truly care, except my family? I can't wait to get on with another career. That may lead me to the right direction.
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4 responses
• Singapore
21 Mar 07
Nice. I think you belong to a rare bleed of people who look beyond the surface. Instead of looking first at the exterior, you are actually able to zoom in straight and see their inner qualities. Awesome, my friend. ;-)
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• Philippines
21 Mar 07
thank you. I try to look at what's inside.
@webeishere (36353)
• United States
21 Mar 07
Was there something in your past that involved a man that may have been hurtful to you in any manner? There may be an underlying issue that makes you avoid men in life now days. Maybe even your father or a relative belittling you or even picking on you, teasing etc, could cause you to avoid men. Just asking is all. No harm or insinuations on my part. Just a bit of curiosity. My dad beat me when I was a child and to this day (I'm 52) I still have a hard time having male friends. That's why I ask this. Thanks. HAPPY POSTINGS FROM GRANDPA BOB !!
• Philippines
21 Mar 07
you could be right, Grandpa Bob. I met this guy at the mall and one thing led to another. People began wagging their tongues until I realized that it's not right for me to bare my soul to anyone. I mean nothing really "bad" happened but it's the talk that made me too insecure and aware of my failings. At the same time, I heard many guys talking trash about girls/women. So I began to develop a certain mechanism to keep me from harm's way. I don't blame men, though.
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@superchook (1786)
• Australia
23 Mar 07
You should try and not worry about what people think or say about you. It doesn't matter what you do, someone will not be happy with you or they will talk about you. I used to worry about what people thought about me and used to be very quiet hoping people wouldn't notice me as much and then they wouldn't say anything about me. I have stopped being like that now and I really enjoy my life a lot more. I know I have people that talk about me, but I don't care anymore.
@sidoney (1033)
• Jamaica
22 Mar 07
you sound like a person who had a bad run in with a male way back maybe when you were a kid some things are hard to get over some things you never get over but be strong and true to you and only you as if you can't do that most of the time then I pray you try