Bithday of my baby girl

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My youngest is turning 11 today!And I feel so messed up, sort of blue.Knowing I can't hold another baby of my own in my arms and cuddle it and nurse it and all, I had a historectomy shortly after my daughter was born,and I get sooo blue knowing this.I drive my baby nuts on her birthday.I ask herif I can hold her and we'll cuddle up on the couch and nap almost all day.Today I had to go to the dr. and I sat and cried when my dr. asked me what was making my frown today. I told her how I felt and she said that is normal for me to feel this way.She told me to start taking St.John's wort and try to smile. Among other things we talked about she made me feel alittle better.And she told me as long as my daughter will let me baby her on her birthday.Cause she said one dayshe will be gone from home and those cuddles wont be around to have.But my baby says mommy I will always come home on my birthday ,from where ever I am ,to hug and hold you and sing and giggle with you.I love my birthday cause you love me so much.And with hearing her say such as that, as a child I feel she will always make me apart of one day of the year,her birthday.Does anyone else get the baby blues even after your baby is as old as mine?