It was a long, tiring, depressing day……..

@mimpi1911 (25464)
India
March 24, 2007 4:38am CST
It was dowdy everywhere, people were jostled, confused, heckled. The bleak noisy surrounding was exacerbated by the interventional hullabaloo of the negotiators. She was standing under a huge pillar of the 400 year old heritage building. The sun stared fiercely, she was dripping inside. He was happy chatting with a friend, whom she didnot know. He drank tea, inspected the mundane surrounding, visited the museum where the historic trials of the freedom fighters were being held during colonialism. She was shocked to see him so carefree, so blithe, so indifferent, She doesnot want to use the term happy, it would shatter her. At about 2-30 pm, they were being called inside. It was pretty much like the ones we see on TV. A dais where the chief sat, two wooden cubicles on both his sides, little lower are the most ordinary chairs arranged in most efficient alignment! About 100 black cloaked people had their respective chairs, behind were the settees for the commoners. they went and sat there. The chief, with a velvety black, supremo apparel, started amidst pin drop silence, one by one the black cloaked placed and argued their says. The attendant hollered 107: 2007 and two black-cloaked men walked upto the dais. she and he stood onto the left wooden cubicle. After a few normal questionnaire, which, mostly, he answered with an eerie, untroubled heart. The man scribbled the testimonial and they were severed!! she drooped down with a bleeding within, shuffled down the long stairs with heavy legs and finally managed to reach the car all alone. she never had wanted this to happen, never. It was a long, tiring, depressing, demoralising day……. I am finally dissociated from my love. thank you all for listening to me.
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6 responses
• Singapore
24 Mar 07
Oh my friend... I am so sorry to read this... :/ Forget this man. He is not worth your love.
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@mimpi1911 (25464)
• India
24 Mar 07
that's okay. i just wanted to share... thanx lordwiz.
• Singapore
24 Mar 07
Cheer up. The world is gonna get better. ;-)
@mimpi1911 (25464)
• India
24 Mar 07
thanx for the way you care.
@yanjiaren (9031)
1 May 07
I know where you are coming from my friend. I have had my heart and body torn apart and my brain scattered into a million pieces. I am trying, against all odds to get my life back together again, and my lovely Mylot friends help me along the way. At least you know here, you are never alone and are amongst friends. Thankyyou for pouring out your heart with us, be safe.
@mimpi1911 (25464)
• India
3 May 07
thanx indeed yanji, for the way you care. surely, no one would understand what it feels like, even with the best of intentions, unless he/she is into it. have a nice life ahead, i do care for you.
@rainbow (6761)
24 Mar 07
Wow, Mimpi, you do write well, that was excellent. Did this happen to you or is it a piece you wrote? If it did I am so sorry for your sadness and want you to know that I am here if you need to talk about it. I feel I should say something more but I'm unsure what, try to be happy my darling and think of all the fun you will have finding a new love.
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@mimpi1911 (25464)
• India
26 Mar 07
thanx sweetie, for the concern. i have been trying to come in terms with what has happened, but, trust me it's very difficult. being a very positive person, i guess i will get over it. thanx
@Avichail (694)
• Indonesia
24 Apr 07
Dear Mimpi, I came across this post while sorting out my email and it is a heavily deep issue you were sharing here. I now understand better some of your comments in my posts. Alienation is always hurting, either done peacefully or not. In the loss of a spouse we share the problems of a bereaved wife. However, divorcees (especially the unwilling one) have deeper problem. The bereaved woman lost her husband, yet it is not by choice, it's just her husband's time to go. But what will it mean to a divorcee when the spouse leave for another person (either male or female!) or EVEN if NOT for anyone else. It speaks volume that, "I'd rather be sickly alone than to be with you!". But every dark times we go through will be a tool to mold us, shape our character for the better. Use the pain to reach others with the similar situations, Mimpi, don't be used by it. Always try to find things you can be thankful for. Believe me, one day you can even be thankful for having to go through this experience. But for now, take time to grieve, you'll do much better to grieve well than to rushingly expect things will get better. There is an Almighty God, Mimpi, He knows your pain, He sees your every tear. Eventhough He didn't prevent the grief to happen, He was with you during those dark hours, every step of the way, be with you until the dark times pass. Take heart...
@Avichail (694)
• Indonesia
24 Apr 07
And don't think of your ex-husband attitude as being mean to you. In fact, quit thinking that he were to blame/just ignorant of you. Let God deal with him, just focus on what you need to deal with yourself. He wouldn't want to hurt you in the first place as much you wouldn't want to do that, either. But things happen and perhaps both of you need good lessons to be better. Pray and forgive him, he's imperfect, just like you. I believe when the lessons have been learnt well, you will seek a reconcialiation with him, having been enabled to see it from the correct perspective.
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@Avichail (694)
• Indonesia
30 Apr 07
Mimpi dear, your well-being taken good care of is much more valuable than this best response marking, thank you however. Allow me to share this one quote... "Better to be taught by suffering than to be taught by sin! Better to lie in God's dungeon than to revel in the devil's palaces." (Charles Spurgeon) For a little while we will be shedding much tears but there will come a day in which those who have shed the most tears for truth will receive much more joy than those who never cry for their sins. Keep doing what is right, Mimpi...=)
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@mimpi1911 (25464)
• India
25 Apr 07
thanx for the good, motivational thoughts avicahil, i just needed it. i have been trying to come in terms with what has happened and i just hope no one goes through such gross phase ever. i have all good feelings for my ex and i know he is not a bad person atall, we did spent some wonderful moments together. god bless him.
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@sreevasu (2717)
• India
25 Apr 07
I was really wondering as to why you are absent in myLot for few days. Yes now I understand. And I appreciate the way you put down your luggages by sharing it with your friends here. Yes now there is nothing in your mind that worries you. You are calm... cool... you can raise your head... you can be more bold, you can be strong... you can be confident. It is a good learning from life that we only have our hands as our pillows. And believe, we all are here to listen you my friend. love....
@bluewings (3857)
26 Mar 07
I am reading it for the first time.Life has more to it than one relationship.Even when you have cherished it like no one else would,even when it hurt more than a physical pain could,even when you wanted it to last and were still unsure,know that things happen for a reason which often is the best, even when we don't understand them.If it was not this,then it could have been worse.It's time to move on and look around.You are wise and hardly need any of this ,but I wanted to share nevertheless.The world is still as beautiful as it always was .Just that we need to change our lenses one in a while.I think you should join one of the websites which reward you for your writing prowess!Bless your heart.
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@mimpi1911 (25464)
• India
27 Mar 07
trust me, bluewings, i am not atall wise and need your thoughful words, i am reduced to a mere vegetable !!! i think, the world is more beautiful, if not for all good things that God has to offer, but certainly for the friends like you who are so caring and loving. i am groping for words, will send you messages, to tell it all. thanx for being so nice.
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