Death of my Grandmother

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I would like to share a heart to heart story and get some thoughts on this. My grandmother passed away 2 years ago. It was hard on everyone, she was the rope that held everyone together. Now she is gone. Anyway, just today I went to visit my grandfather. It was strange going to her house and not seeing her. I havn't been back since she passed away so this was the first time being back in her home. It was her home, her furnature, even her TV, but she wasn't there. She had a certain scent that I can smell from time to time even now, that wasn't there. Why coudn't I smell her? I felt like a stranger in her home. I grew up there, I had sleep over's and parties with my friends there. We had our Christmas' there every year. Her home was my home anytime I was visiting her. Why did I feel like a stranger? So many questions now, I can't put them all together. I can sometimes see and feel her near me, but not today, not in her own home. I am so confused. Is this normal? She is the first family member I have been close to that has passed away. Is it suposed to feel this way even after 2 years? I am not sure where I am wanting to go with this, I guess just getting these feelings out will help.