Have you already killed someone in your mind?

United States
April 10, 2007 7:47pm CST
I have, several times in the past. I know that these are evil thoughts, but I couldn't control thinking that I have killed a certain person I truly hate at the time. I would do this as part of my defense mechanism, when I'm truly mad at someone. Instead of confronting, I would just kill the person in my mind, then I would feel better. Sometimes, my mind would cook up even gory details. It's just when someone told me that I should stop doing this, that I started avoiding having these thoughts. What about you? Do you think this is bad? Have you or do you also do this?
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10 responses
@mgmagana (3618)
• United States
11 Apr 07
Well i don't actually kill someone, but i say if something were to happen to him i wouldn't be sad! He's about to go to iraq, now don't be fooled by him being in the army reserve, he did it because he wanted a reason to get away from his kids. He's not a good man.
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• United States
11 Apr 07
Geez..that's really bad. Anyway, I won't kill anybody, not in the life of me. That's why I just kill in my mind. It's a form of suppression, I guess. I would even feel guilty if something actually would happen to that person, no matter how mean he/she is, because I would feel that I caused it (because I willed it). And you know, the power of the mind. Thanks so much for the response!
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@mgmagana (3618)
• United States
11 Apr 07
I know i say that now out of anger, but you never know when it actually happens.
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@marciascott (25529)
• United States
11 Apr 07
that is funny, I do think that sometimes. when I get very angry. Only in My mind.
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• United States
11 Apr 07
Yes, I do feel like we feel the same thing. I think instead of acting it out, we suppress it, and do it in our minds instead, then it's going to be over. Thanks for the response!
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@cdparazo (5765)
• Philippines
11 Apr 07
I have never ever thought of killing someone even in my mind. Just the thought of it scares the hell out of me. I even avoid thinking bad things happening to that person for fear that it might come true. All things tangible is born first in our minds and I'm really afraid that I might be psycho or something. LOL. However, I have thought a lot of times of humiliating someone that I really don't like and it's usually through sarcastic words and I actually relish saying those words in my mind even if I can't really say it out loud.
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• United States
11 Apr 07
You don't think too much evil thoughts. Good for you, you can control that part of you. I hope I would develop a healthy mind like yours, and by this I mean I could control my mind to not think of extremely bad things that I could do to others. Thanks for the response!
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• United States
14 Apr 07
I'm sure I've killed my husband's girlfriend many times. With my car, or watching her get hit by a train... But I try not to think like that. I'm taking the high road and asking God to change my heart towards her. I am working on forgiving her.
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• United States
14 Apr 07
I'm glad that you have chosen to "take the high road" and work at forgiving her. That's really something. It's really difficult to just forgive and forget. Thanks for the response!
@fawcey (926)
• Australia
24 May 07
Whoa no wonder you have those thoughts!! How are you going on the forgiving? Still killing her with trains,planes and automobiles!!!? I wouldn't blame you!
• United States
15 Apr 07
Still struggling, but I feel I'm getting there.
• United States
11 Apr 07
This is funny. I have, but it is very rare. I am constently getting annoyed with others. Sometimes to the point where I will graphically beat the living crap out of them, normally with some good heavy music playing :) Once, in a while, my beatings will turn into rage, and in my mind I will stomp their head in, or take something and crush their skull. Whatever, as long as they die :P Is it wrong?? HELL YES ITS WRONG!!! I know if it wasn't for the "law" I think almost everyone one time in their life would kill somebody. Me 2 or 3... or 10. :) Good topic, I wonder how many people will admit to doing this though, considering it is so morally wrong, that it is disturbing.
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• United States
11 Apr 07
I am actually aware that this is wrong (from a moral standpoint especially if I would be listening to my mom ranting about immorality). But then, I still did these. Your description is so vivid, and I could also remember one time thinking about bashing the head of my enemy (of course in my mind). It is indeed disturbing. Thanks for the response!
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• Australia
11 Apr 07
I do it lots. I've mentally killed people hundreds of times. I find it really helps me when im feeling very angry, especially if i imagine it vividly and with brutal, nasty details. I think its fine to do that. It isn't like you're thinking about really killing anyone, and it makes you feel better. so its a good thing to do. i used to have an old mattress which i'd stab with a knife while picturing it as being my enemy when i was feeling extremely upset. it really helped me get rid of my anger. of course, i'd never really kill anyone.
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• United States
11 Apr 07
I never have gone yet to the point of stabbing something (like a mattress as you said). At least you have a way of letting off your steam without hurting anybody. I have read from one article that it's actually healthy to picture killing someone in one's mind. Will try to find that again. I'm not sure, though, if it's a right thing to do. Thanks for the response!
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@liranlgo (5752)
• Israel
15 Apr 07
Well, i do believe that everybody has a thought of killing someone else from time to time, but the beautiful thing is that this is just thoughts. The scary part is that you start having those thoughts in reality, when you see that person in front of you, it is always so scary, because you are asking yourself the question, what would happen if i really would do that? am i crazy or am i crazy. Lol. Yes. i know, that like you said, it is a part of our defense mechanism, when we are mad. But i also had this thoughts after talking to that person and making things to go straight again. Well i guess i did not react as well to compromising with the situation, and was still very mad inside. But now days, i do have a special technique to calm myself down, and those thoughts are usually not appearing that often, as they did before.
• United States
16 Apr 07
You're right, these thoughts have to be somehow controlled one way or the other because who knows that one day, there would be a sudden actualization of the deed! Hopefully not, that's why I'm trying to avoid thinking of killing someone in my mind these days. Good thing you found a technique to calm yourself. Thanks for the response!
@fawcey (926)
• Australia
24 Apr 07
I don't do this as much now but I use to do it all the time when I was younger. Mostly it was at my parents, or teachers. If I was being told something or they were having a go at me about something, I would just be sitting there taking it saying 'yes dad' 'sorry dad' or sorry mum but the whole time in my head I am slapping them or pushing them and yes even killing them. I would then be in my room and be doing just as you said, cooking up gory details of ways to get even. But of course I would never act on this. I also in my head would be saying something I would really like to say but wouldn't have the guts, but really I was just going along with everyone and putting up with a lot of crap. I used it as my defense mechanism and I think it worked well. I am not a violent person and have never hurt anyone and I never would, but in my head it is just like dreaming but I am awake and have a say. I do not think it is bad as it doesn't hurt anyone.
@kedar777 (51)
• India
14 Apr 07
i think its a good thing coz u won't harm the person physically..well i have killed many peopl in my mind in the past..esp some teachers who absolutelty hate me..
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• United States
14 Apr 07
I know it's a form of defense mechanism because we know we can't actualize it. The things the mind can really cook up, right? I just wonder why some of your teachers would hate you. Hehehe. Happy myLotting!
• United States
15 Apr 07
While those violent thoughts may be alarming, they're completely normal. In fact, they're healthy! It's a way for you to release that negative energy that has been building up. I'm sure others would tell you something drastically different, but that's how it has worked for me.
• United States
15 Apr 07
It's good to hear that. In a sense, it's a way of calming me down, instead of actualizing something. I'm not sure if thinking of these things would mean I have a repressed violent tendency. Hopefully not. I just want to rid of these thoughts so that I could practice a little bit of self-control. Thanks for the response!