do you meet your maker when you die?

Meeting God is not always on the physical side of it. True enough that we will see Him face to face when we die. But many people have met God through their own circumstances or experience. And God manifest His very presence in different forms: either with one's spirit, feelings, impression, thoughts, sometimes by tangible things, etc. and adaptable to individuals' personality. You don't have to kill yourself just to meet Him. If God doesn't want you to die even if you wanted to, then, what else can you do? God have a purpose for you that you don't discover yet. Don't be bitter on God.