I am God! (or so I thought I was)

Philippines
May 3, 2007 1:51pm CST
messianic complex. it's that feeling that you're the only one who can save everyone else. have you felt that before? i'm doing my thesis right now. as a computer science student our thesis should apply what we have learned during our stay in college. and that would be creating programs or applications software. too bad i am the best programmer in the batch. as the member of the thesis group, my task was to create the application software - my groupmates are just not too good in programming. the fate of our group lies in the performance of the application software that i will develop - we will fail if i don't do my job right. sigh. the burden's just too heavy sometimes - the people i worked with sometimes confide in me that i'm their only way to pass thesis. that i'm the only one that can save them. i can't help but feel i'm some hero. have you felt as if you're the only one that could save somebody? how did it felt?
2 responses
winterose
@winterose (39887)
• Canada
4 May 07
no I never felt that. I always felt that I could help people, but never that I was the only one, not really. Sometimes I was the best in a group as well, but I never had the god complex, it wasn't a matter of saving them, it was a matter of me being good and knowing that and appreciating that for myself.
howhigh
@howhigh (757)
• Canada
3 May 07
You are always in that position whether you know it or not. Your reality is built off of random interactions with people and things you don't remember. Your actions always shape the world.. not anymore than anyone else's. in one respect i would say we are all god because we all have the power to affect those around us in profound ways. Your fate is always in the hands of random decisions made by random people