Alone in the crowd, ever been?

Good thought! I think such situations are weird.... there have been times when I am sitting with some dealers discussing strategy and suddenly I am somewhere else a world on its own a place where the people with me are not there! Like fantasy. There are also times when I am with my family and suddenly I miss a certain person badly and at those times I am lonely and all by myself in my misery (misery 'cos I know I can't meet the person, since I am with my family the atmosphere is one of fun and happiness)and a comforting presence of that person is felt when I close myself and think of that person! It seems my mind can make me lonely in a crowd very easily. Ofcourse there are times when I go into meditation mode standing with eyes open this helps come in grips with the situation that my mind has created by overworking itself, after a while I feel better and then comes the adjustment part which is the hardest to do....

Many times. My world it feels really bad

I am often the one in the crowd by myself. I am a watcher in the window. Always on the outside looking in. Even within my own family I was the one on the outside. I have come to embrace my differences. I am myself, no one else can rule me. I have my own opinions, my own dreams, my own reality. There is nothing wrong with being on the outside, being the "odd man out" in a crowd. The ones that are different, the ones that have been pushed aside, told they are not welcome, the ones with the visions. They are the true inventors, visionaries, the ones that make a difference and impact the world with their innovations.

That happens to me a lot. Sometimes it feels good, but other times it feels like the rat race is getting to me and I get a little sad.