held in a relation in wich i wish i wasnt

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this guy was there with me since childhood and my bf came in my life since 4yrs...in the begingin of my relationship i felt he is the perfect one for me but later on i have realised that i have..i have some different feelin for my childhood frnd though we both knw each other so well tat we never thought abt any othr relation except frndshp bcz somewhere we had our own relationship wid other was goin on ..now i have commited to my bf and i lov my childhood frnd.....he also knws abt my relation wid my bf n want me to take a decision but i am afraid to tell this to my bf becz we already broken up twice creatin the worst situations but as time passed we got bac to each other might b becoz we realized our mistakes and my childhood frnd broke up wid his gf bcz he realized he loves me...now i am in a situation where i have to choose between these two guys my bf cant stand him since he is my best frnd frm childhood but my frnd respects my decision plz help me out of this situation shud i go for anyone of these guys which one and y or shud i look out for some other ways