3rd Party??

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Recently, i noticed this guy in my class. Well, i have to confessed first, though we took that subject together and were in the same class for about 3 months, i really didn't realise his presence...real dump but that's me...lol. That 'fateful' day, i went up to class early and saw him inside the classroom too...then i vaguely remember that i am in the same class as him. In the pretense of reading my textbook, i took a good look at him. He is rather fair and quite poliet...overall, he gave the impression of a gentle guy and a real gentleman. Then we all went for a camp and amazingly i was in the same group as him!! Welll, maybe it's really fate...lol. Then we started to chat and i begin to know him better...Throughout the 4 day 3 night camp, we got along really well...i was really glad that i made such a good friend and really hope that our friendship can go on forever. After the camp, we parted...that's when i start to feel wierd. I missed him VERY MUCH...he occupied most of my thoughts...at first, i thought 'maybe, i had gotten used to being with him...that's why i feel so lost now'...but the feelin continued and have no sign of fading away...i found myself waiting eagerly in front of the computer screen for him to come online...and when he didn't, i felt really really SAD...it's like there's a huge stone pinning me to the ground, i almost can't breathe...the feeling was terrible. Then i realised the horrible truth...i had fallen in love with him during that few days!! But what's worse is not that... He has a girlfriend!! Even though he and his girlfriend would not know about my feelings for him, but deep in my heart, i felt guilty...like i had betrayed our innocent friendship and his girlfriend...i felt like a stupid 3rd party!! But i had fallen too deep into the love trap...unknowingly, i had let myself fell in so deep that it's really hard for me to pull out now...I really don't know what to do...it's scary... I know that we are impossible but i just can't forget him...i tried many times but i failed terribly. i wanted to delete his contact from my msn and my phone...but i just couldn't press down the 'delete' button...it HURTS...really hurts...everytime when i think about him, his girlfriend's face will flash across in my brain and make me feel really horrible for being a 3rd party...but it's equally terrible when i try to put him out of my mind... Dear readers...please tell me what should i do?