can you imagine your life without him/her?

@migenKC (792)
Philippines
June 16, 2007 1:52am CST
since i was kid.. i always have a dream to work on an international company or on a very famous film makers like dreamworks... i am not a gifted child, i dont have the talent to sing nor to dance. i am not tall and pretty so im not qualified to be an actress..that's why i studied hard to make my self intelligent... when i was starting to find the real ability i have.... i dream to be a famous web page developer... i decided to start finding ways on how can i be such a person until an opportunity came... i have given a rare chance to go to a progressive country, Australia, to study and afterwards im going to take my masteral at University of Melbourne(one of the top 10 best schools in the world). that is a Great rare opportunity for us Filipinos..A life time to have for some of us. But there is something in my mind that bothers me always... if ill be at Australia and study there i cant be with the boyfriend i love so much... i couldnt see him for 2 years even for once... maybe, i can go back here at the Philippines and stay for only 2 months but i have to leave him again and go back to that strange country.then, if ill be having a chance to work at the company i was dreaming about and be very rich after 9 long years(thats the estimated period of time ill be spending away from my boyfriend)... im going to lose him... and i cant be happy even if ill have everything i want without the one i always love. sometimes... i think if i have to make a choice.. either, ill be reaching out the fullest of my potential and hit the greatest goal i could accomplish BUT i dont have the person i was dreaming also... or to live on a simple life with the only person i could be happy with.. in which future i can be happy? do i have to take a detour and listen to what my heart always says? or do i have to go straightforward and proceed to what i have started? if you are on my situation... what would you follow? on what direction are you going to choose?
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@butterfly39 (3907)
• Philippines
16 Jun 07
It's hard to be in a situation like yours, choosing dreams and lovelife. Okey, If you're boyfriend loves you so much then he can wait, but if he can't wait then you're not mean to be. And i am sure you'll achieve you dreams coz you worked hard for it. Don't worry if you loose someone then God prepares the best one for you. He know's who's best for you so don't worry pursue your dreams girl.
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@migenKC (792)
• Philippines
16 Jun 07
yah, but as of now... i cant imagine my life without him... we broke up and been separated for 2 months and i feel regrets on the wasted time... now that im leaving... i dont know how strong i am... without the dream i guy i already have.
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@Lydia1901 (16354)
• United States
17 Jun 07
Well, coming form somone who was left because I wasn't loved anymore, it is ok to follow your dreams and make something out of yourself. Love is everywhere and you will find somone else to love again someday. If that person understands your situation, he would've waited for you or something like that.