have you ever thought of ending your life?

Philippines
June 22, 2007 3:21am CST
i've been through a lot in my 21 years of life. i've experienced death of a mom, a lot of frustrations, disappointments, heartaches, sadness and other emotions (how i wish i'd be numb from these emotions. lol. kididng). and sometimes i think of just ending my life because of all the hardships. but the funny thing is, i'm scared! i've never slashed my wrist yet, never attempted any suicidal actions. maybe it just runs in my mind. is it normal for a person to think of just ending his or her life? or am i having some problems in my mind now and need a professional?
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@sandwedge (1339)
• Malaysia
22 Jun 07
i have never thought of ending my life, BUT i do however though of ending my golf buddy's life on numerous occasion. he cheats! just the other day he lost his ball and without losing a storke, he pulls a new ball out of his pocket and continue like nothing happen! i KNOW he lost his ball because its in my pocket.
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• Philippines
23 Jun 07
lol.... hahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!! =) i like that. haha.
• United States
23 Jun 07
trust me when i tell you that i have lived 34 years and i have thought about it at least a thousand or more times. i could never do it either. i am so glad that i did'nt,even thought i have had a brain tumor and had two go threw chemo twice and now i have parkinson. god is still good. i have 5 children and a single mom for most of the time until 2 years ago good brought a great man into our lives. he loves me and the kids he help me take care of me and them. when i was your age i wanted to take my life because the love of my life was gunned down walking from the basketball court he was mistaking for someone else he was my future i was his i was pregant i lost him and the baby 3 days apart. it has taking me 13 years to try and really let love happen and i went threw beatings from my kids father to him cheating right in my face. to wake up and say god i want more show me what to do take these thoughts from me because,after the storm there is a rainbow.
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@rhinoboy (2129)
22 Jun 07
I think many people have thoughts like you, but that is not the same as seriously believing that ending your life is the only option left. We all have to go through problems in our lives and difficult times, but I too believe that the world is beautiful and learning to appreciate it is the best thing we can do. People are so busy today, nobody has time to really enjoy the millions of small joys and pleasures life brings to us. Look around and you will see that there is plenty to keep us all happy.
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@swatig (1183)
• India
22 Jun 07
You need a professional, not professional help but need a office professional which makes you also professional in your work, which keeps away from these negative feeling. if you are busy with your work, with office then there is no point of these feeling to come so try to busy with the office work. drink lot of liquid while working and try to forget odd things from yur life. Try to remember good things which makes smile in your face. and talk as much as you can also help to elimate neagative feeling from your side. dnt forget to smile with me :)
@swatig (1183)
• India
22 Jun 07
thank you betheal, for yur smile.
• Philippines
22 Jun 07
haha yeah, will always smile for you =)
@rosie_123 (6113)
22 Jun 07
Well I think everyone thinks about it from time to time. We all go through bad times in our lives - losses, bereavements etc - it is part of life's rich pattern. I lost my Mum when I was quite young too, and had a disastrus first marriage, - so I know what it's like to feel sad. I would never have done it though - I'm actually far too much of a coward to inflict pain on myelf, and there is always someone/something out there who would feel sad at your passing, and you wouldn't want to put them through it. I hope things get better for you sweetie.
• Philippines
23 Jun 07
hi rosie! thanks for your encouragement, i really need it.
@baligs (4)
• India
22 Jun 07
yes. i can identify with whatever u feel. i used to feel the same way, i used to numb these feelings of sadness, lonliness, desperation, helplessness, hopelessness by doing things compulsively, like i would play games on the net 24hrs at a stretch, sometimes eat so much that i had to throw up. the best way i found to get out of this is to talk honestly to people about your feelings, and when you do that most times these thoughts just go away. i know where you are coming from, i was the same 6 years back, but you know what i never had the balls to act out on those thoughts, which made me even more desperate. i still get such thoughts from time to time but i talk to my friends about it. cheers, hugs, love n light bali.
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@ESKARENA1 (18261)
22 Jun 07
i think about ending my life quite often. However, im a coward and scared of pain so i think its unlikely i ever will blessed be
• Philippines
22 Jun 07
me too, i'm too scared to hurt myself...
• India
23 Jun 07
I am 20 years old... havent experienced to many heartbreaks or deaths. But lately life has been quite harsh on me. I have faced 10 times more troubles and tensions than I ever faced. I think its because am in love or because I have started taking things more seriously. Its taking its toll on me. Several times, several dissappointments, I have thought of it several times. Just, why not just once, end it all for good, end it once and for all. No one to claim me, just finish every pressure. Its been quite tough, I mean living last 1 and half year. But I think its only for this love that I am still dragging my life. Its just for that one person, no matter how much I get hurt I want to live for her. As long as I can, I want to make her happy, no matter what she does. I really don't know how long I will be able to carry on, but yes I know one thing that I won't give up this easily. I will atleast try to fight till the end. End of all tensions. I will get my life back someday. I will keep on trying. NEVER SAY DIE.
• United States
23 Jun 07
i think about it all the time. i have experienced a lot in my 23 years. i won't tell you what...just know it is here is not a day that goes by without my feeling depressed. i'mso sorryto hear you feel this way. It is the furthest thing from easy and most people just don't understand.
@saralee1 (1983)
• United States
22 Jun 07
We all deal with heartache hon, and losses of loved ones. I have lost all my grandparents, and my mother and father, and I have thought of ending it. Just in my mind though. But even if you lose 100 battles, you are going to win at something in life. And, when you do, it will be sweet victory! As Mother Theresa once said, start with the little things, and they will become big things! (she was talking of small miracles) be the change you wish to see in the future! My thing, was signing petitions for a cause. And, it seemed no matter what I did,big business always tore up the small guy, who was fighting him, up until yesterday. you see, in Africa, they grow a rich distinct coffee used by Starbucks, and Starbucks doesn't pay the farmers much at all! Do you know how great it felt when they contacted me, to let me know that the people in Africa would finally get their fair share of the wealth they need so badly? it wasa victory! I had personally written the CEO of Starbucks to tell him that what I thought the company was doing was unfair, and that they needed to give these poor people a break, because Africa is hurting bigtime. They awarded Africa millions! and, the next time I drink Starbucks coffee, all I will taste, is sweet success! be the change you wish to see. God does Love you, you know.
• Philippines
22 Jun 07
hi sara, wow, just reading your story about africa and starbucks gives me the chill.... it was so awesome! how did you do that?? maybe what i lack from my life is a drive to move on and face the hardships in life... like you, you're happy right now because you have a purpose in life, and you've fulfilled one of your purpose, which is to help the african farmers... congratulations friend, wishing you the best!
@archer1811 (1098)
• Philippines
23 Jun 07
Definitely no, its not good ending with your own life, only God have this power to end up ones life. So whatever emotions or frustrations you feel dont ever try to end up your own life. Just have faith in God and He will help you to get out into that situation.
• India
22 Jun 07
I don't think it's very wise to take this type of decision.Coz life is the most precious gift given by the godto us. so we have no right to spoil it. So don't ever think that
23 Jun 07
it is not good life is given to us by god only
• India
24 Jun 07
first of alll... tell me -- who created you ??? the ultimate answer is... god, mum n dad !! & the basic rulle-- u dont have the ryt to destroy anything which is not created by u... so its only ur mum dad or god who can take away ur life...and ofcourse ur mum n dad wud neva do dat.. so god i.e the natural causes only have d ryt to take the life away from u.... so whatever anxiety or tensions or problems u have in ur lyf.....dont ever think of taking such a step... tc
@ackars (1942)
• India
22 Jun 07
I have thought of ending my life once when I didnt get into the medical entrance exam when I wrote it the first time.I was so confident that I will get through but I didnt.But I repeated for coaching and now happy beacuse I got into one of the best medical institutiona in the nation.
@ashveen (301)
• France
22 Jun 07
ya previously i often thought of tht but not 4 the same reason..but i never tried..i always tried 2 think of the consequences..now i realise thts the worst thng ever 2 do.. thts all i can tell.. one more..only friends cn help u out..