Still missing her

July 6, 2007 7:27am CST
My mum was a lovely woman, had a heart as big as you can imagine and was a wonderful, wonderful parent and my best friend. She died five years ago and there still isn't a day that goes by without thinking about her at least once. Since then I have had two more grandchildren for her, got married and settled down, something that I never thought that I would do, and matured and started to appreciate what is real in life and that we all have to take responsibility for our actions. Today I am feeling particularly down and really need to see my mum. I realize that this is not possible and I can't tell you what I would give for another 24 hours with her, just to give her the best hug, smell her again, ask her those questions about stuff that she took to the grave with her, to show her how well her grandchildren are doing, just to be near her again. You do not know what you have got until it is gone and I wish that someone could take the pain away, which has lessened over time, but her going has left a huge hole. Love you Mum xxxxxxx
2 responses
@roxane (12)
6 Jul 07
I am so sorry to hear of you loss. You are still grieving and believe me there is no time limit to your grief. You are right it is like huge hole, a great big open wound which over time you will learn to protect. Allow yourself to miss her, shout out for her if you want to hear yourself say mum again. As your life goes on you will learn to appreciate hers even more. Her strength her courage and most of all her love for you. Take warmth from her memories and let yourself laugh at the things she would have found funny, take strenghth from her courage remember her wisdom and though she is not here and noone can bring her back she is with you.
@mrsbrian (1951)
• United States
6 Jul 07
I understand your pain as I have just lost my mother this past December, and I wonder daily how to go on with out her. So many days I wish I had her here to talk with, just to hear her voice one more time. There are so many daily life occurances that I want her to know about as she would have good advice on how to handle them. If I could sit with her and hold her hand for one more day, but I know she is no longer in pain and she is seeing all from above and thats what keeps me going. God bless you and i will keep you in my thoughts.