What do you mean by "What am I"? You are you. No one can be you. you are unique. No one is better than you. You can be anything you want to be just put your mind to it.
From me you seem to be a confused person who actually doesnt know what he/she is doing. Can you please put your query in a detailed manner so that we can help you out . If you dont have any genuine issue please dont waste our time
