Are you or someone you know a Crack Addict????

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I have to say that this is one of the most devistating addictions to have. It will rob you of your family, your life, your self esteem. And take you to places you never thought you would be in life. I was raised a nice, Jewish girl that from the start was doomed. At age 15 I started to use alcohol, at age 27 I was a full blown alcoholic and cocaine addict. I used IV cocaine for about 4 years through 2 pregnancies. I had my daughter taken from me because of my cocaine use. In 1993 I contracted Hep C. I then stopped my cocaine use for 14 yrs. I did continue to abuse alcohol with a few years here and there of sobriety. In 05 my mother passed suddenly of cancer and I lost it. I started on a down hill spiral of alcoholism, and an out of control gambling addiction. As I write this, I only wish I could go back to a year ago. Before I almost died from an overdose of alcohol and pills. Before I deceided to just try coke again since I was going into rehab anyway. The biggest mistake of my adult life was to allow cocaine back into it. From the first time I smoked that crack I again was hooked, after thinking I would never go back to that life. Now a year later I have been to two rehabs and pretty much any extra money I get I use for crack. I sit up for hours and sometimes days at a time, in crack houses, stooping to a level that is just not me to obtain this seductive drug. I will go a few weeks without, swearing to never do it again, and somehow I find myself back in the pits of Hell. Never knowing if this will be my last time, or if I will see my family again. That daughter that I lost 21 yrs ago, because of coke now will not talk to me. My 18 yr old son has moved 3000 miles away, my 17 yr old son cant trust me, my husband and I are no longer partners. Now, just sharing the same air in a box we call home. I just want a magic wand to wave and make it all go away. I hate the power that something can have over a person. I just want to again, be free, before everything is gone. Thanks G