We live in a culture fixated on youth.
Old means feeble and helpless, unable to earn money or climb mountains.
Old is a lot of fun though, because I don't worry about what I say anymore, I wear comfortable clothes, and life is good.
I have to say yes I am . I know I should not be but I am. I just have this horrible fear of needing someone. Just to wash my azz. I love showers and most days take about 3+. If I were to need others to bathe me I would die waiting.