if only i could kill him
June 23, 2008 7:16am CST
another rant from me, my way of letting my anger go. it's up to you if you wanna read it or leave it. if it's legal to kill, i would gladly and happily kill my older brother. he's a good for nothing spoiled brat. all he knows was to hurt us siblings. why do such people exist like that? i hope he would just change for the good or if not, i hope he gets killed one of these days. i really have a huge grudge on this person. ever since when i was in high school, he kicked me on my chest that i nearly fall off the stairs then he loves to butt in on some of the things and decisions that i wanna do. like for today, my cousin asked me if should continue on going to the supermarket or not. i said i don't wanna go since it's already 6pm here. then he asked my cousin on what are we gonna do on the supermarket. my cousin told him that we're buying a table for my bedroom. and then he said, "table for what? she wouldn't use it for studying purposes, she would only just use it for her laptop." and so what? he should mind his own damn business instead of minding my own business. he didn't hear a single word from me if he and his friends has a drinking session in our house even though they were really really noisy and doing something that i don't like. can't he just keep on shutting his mouth and minding his own business?! oh, i wish i could move out of this house, if only i could. but too bad, i'm still studying right now and i can't afford to rent a house on my own. i don't have a friend who can also do that in order for me to share some expenses with them. i also don't wanna be a burden to them if would stay in their house.
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• United States
23 Jun 08
Hi rhane, I wonder why he is like that...what's your parents reaction about his attitude and the way he treated all his siblings...I understand how you feel and it's not really easy..I wish you will be able to express to him how he hurt your feelings and maybe soon he will realize it and he will change!
• United States
23 Jun 08
Okay this is something you probably really don't want to hear. Your big brother is your big brother, teasing, butting in, pestering and acting like an a*s is part of his job description! As far as him being spoiled you may see it that way but if he is the oldest (especially the oldest son) he may feel pressure from you parents that you don't realize or he may just don't want you to make mistakes that he has made (ex. not being able to do what you want in life because of poor grades).As long as you both live under the same roof he IS going to be a BIG brother, after you both get out on your own and start seeing each other as "real people" instead of just big brother and little sister, the way you view each other will change (i know you don't believe this but take my word for it, i speak from experience). As far as wishing it was legal to kill him, i hope nothing happens to him while you feel this way because the guilt would probably drive you crazy! You would not have anything to feel guilty about (unless you DID kill him, LOL) because most younger siblings feel this way about their older siblings sooner or later but you would still feel it,because that is human nature. When you get older and have children as they get older you will find yourself telling them things that your brother did when you were growing up and most of the time it will be about something that he did that made you want to kill him but by then you will see it in a different light and you will probably be laughing about it. In the meantime just try to ignore him as best as you can or tell him to mind his own business, if he doesn't make you mad and get the response that he wants (which is to get you mad) he will probably just ignore you most of the time. Just remember he IS being a BIG brother as aggravating and as obnoxious as that is, it is his role in your life at this time! Keep telling yourself "this to shall pass" and have a great day.
24 Jun 08
i told my mom that we should bring him to someone who can talk to him. my mom just says yes and until now, she doesn't take an action about that. i ask her why and she just answers me that she doesn't want to ruin our reputation because of bringing my older brother for a counciling. i also remember that when i was about 13 or 14 that time, i was talking to my friend over the phone. then he suddenly unplug the cord of the phone without telling me why did he do that. that was pretty mean isn't it?