I am at the edge of the cliff...

Philippines
July 11, 2008 12:09pm CST
I am so at the edge of the cliff right now...I feel like life is not going well for me...I am so burdened with debts and each time I get to pay the other another debt comes along. I am so depressed about it. As some of you know I am a mother of 5. Basically, I pay for everything..as in all the expenses..bills..school..etc. My husband doesn't work and he basically don't try to get a job at all...and I have already stopped caring that he doesn't want to find one because I am fed up of it already. Anyways, I work full time and when my salary comes nothing is left of it because I have to pay my debts off and nothing is even left for groceries. On monday, it's my daughters pre-lim exams and she needs to pay her tuition and she needs to be in uniform on Monday which I don't know how I will pay for the tuition and get to buy her a uniform..she is asking me to buy her books for school as well and some other payments she needs for school too..Earlier the phone company came to our house and was asking me to pay for my late phone bill that was already cut. I begged him to let me pay on the 15th next month and he agreed. Then the mail came from the internet company asking me to pay them and it was a demand letter from their lawyer. Internet is already cut at home as well. In our place as well we don't have water and it's really frustrating because at times there's not even enough for bath. My food supply is nearly finish and we will run out of it soon. My little girl will also start school this Monday and I cant even buy her a little skirtI feel like I am carrying a very heavy burden..sometimes I just shrug it off and find ways..ways like borrow again money from my friend to add to the other debts I have..I also have 2 cards to pay and also the electric bill which I cant pay now that my wallet is empty. I was hospitalized last month and recently I feel I have became weak. I cannot even buy my meds.I even tried writing Oprah hoping she might be able to help me..(I am that desperate). I am also trying to get another job which will take off sleep from me if ever I get hired...I am a strong person and never give up but there are just those times that I feel I am at the edge of a cliff and ready to fall..If you know what I mean...I am not into luxury and dont buy anything for myself..I am also not a bad person but sometimes I feel I a being punished for something..They say things happen for a reason..and everything is just trials in life..I think I have enough of it. Why can't they give this kind of trials to rich people..They can handle it more than I can. If any of you knows anything that can help me out I would appreciate it. I cannot pay to join anything and I have tried all ptc, ptr, surveys in site and only mylot paid me..It is a slow process..Anything you have in mind? I hope anyone can help before the rocks below my feet falls off with me on it at the edge of the cliff...Thanks..
4 responses
@cupid74 (11394)
• Pakistan
12 Jul 08
Hi dear i cant say anything as i knew situation is not good, all i can say i have few dollars in moneybboker, if u know how can i transfer it to u, i will be willing to do it wish u all the best, and i am optimistic that if u stay strong u will be out of it soon Take care
• Philippines
5 Aug 08
Really? It's tempting because I really need it ..I would like to thank you for the offer but I don't think I can accept it. I really appreciate it though..
@cupid74 (11394)
• Pakistan
7 Aug 08
well i am serious and sincere about it
• Philippines
7 Aug 08
You are very nice to me. I have seen you respond to some of my post and I really do appreciate it. All your words are very nice. I don't know how to transfer moneybooker. I have never heard about it. I only have paypal. Thanks for the generous offer. Take care
11 Jul 08
Hello p3halliwel2005, I am sorry to hear about your plight, but first thing first,kick your husband out to find work and if he don't kick him out for good so you won't have to feed him. May try and find a depth collector who have all the cards and just pay off what you can afford. Don't worry something will turn up. Tamarafireheart.
• Philippines
11 Jul 08
I can't kick my husband out because it's his house and if ever I leave I wont have a place to go to. I have him do the pickups from our kids school. He drives me to work at times when we have gas. And I have scolded him so many times to find work which he never does. I just hope someday he will have a mind to it. Thanks for the response. I appreciate it.
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11 Jul 08
Hello p3halliwel2005, I am glad he does a lot for you and the kids. I will pray for you so that you might find a light at the end of the tunnel. I have been through hard ship myself so I understand,bless you. Tamarafireheart
• Philippines
5 Aug 08
Thanks so much. Take care
@Turin7 (2)
• United States
20 Jul 08
ill pray for you my dear. many of us can empathize, but their is a heavy weight of responsibility for the caring of children(5!) i prey for low gravity and strong arms, woman keep troopn
• Philippines
5 Aug 08
Thanks so much I really appreciate it.
@RDugas (247)
• United States
11 Jul 08
God does not give us anything that we cannot handle. I know things look pretty grim right now, but if you keep your faith up that things will get better, they will! You may want to contact some of your local church groups to see if they have ne thing to help you out. Check out www.angelfoodministries.com you can get a good bit of groceries for really cheap. If you are not ill you can donate plasma for cash. Just do a search for plasma centers in your area. I hope everything gets better for you real soon.
• Philippines
11 Jul 08
Thanks for the response..I do hope it is available in the Philippines. Our country has been suffering from high market cost and gas price. I don't think I am in good health to donate anything from my body since I have been sickly lately. Churches here don't give out individually they give out through charity by group so I have to scratch that out as well. I appreciate your response. Take care!