After nearly two years he was still on my mind...

@Anne19 (300)
Philippines
July 25, 2008 2:46am CST
There was this guy I've loved so much but because of some reasons we fall apart. We've been together for like 6 years and we do have a daughter. Ever since we broke up, I've never dated anybody else, never been seriously involved with some other guy. He was still on my mind after nearly two years and no matter what I do, I can't forget him. It's not like I still love him that much but it's more of like I still feel something about him which I can't put into words. Our parting has been a traumatic, and we've never alright since then. But only a call or text from him can turned my world upside again. I admit he still has an effect on me but I don't wanna get back on him anymore. I don't know, maybe because he has hurt me so much. They time heal all wounds. There are times, I'm hurting but most often than not, I'm at peace. Do you think I still love him or I am already on the process of letting go?
2 responses
@checapricorn (16066)
• United States
10 Aug 08
Hi Anne, [i]I believed you're still in love with him...But, since you have a kid I hope there is a chance for both of you to reconcile..Anyway, I have no idea the reasons of your separation but if it was too painful, just continue healing and who knows right man will come in your way soon! It takes time to forget someone who makes you happy and hurt you in the end, but, for sure, you will just recover![/i]
@Anne19 (300)
• Philippines
10 Aug 08
Thanks for a very encouraging message. With all the pains I've been through because of selfishness, I just don't know if I can still risks again. But you're correct, I need to heal and that's what I am doing right now. It will take a while but I've already realized that I can't rush things. Thanks for dropping by.. cheers! :) :)
• Philippines
25 Jul 08
Hey Anne! I wouldn't say that 2 years is enough to heal a heart that truly loved and was broken. I remember when I was 17 I fell in love with this guy (he was my crush for 2 years before that, but that's another story), but unfortunately we got separated and only saw each other about twice a year. He never said he loved me, but we were super-close friends, and he did things for me that no ordinary friend would. After 4 years I learned that he had a girlfriend, so I tried to forget him. It took me another 3 years after that before I had a boyfriend (Wasn't I the hopeless one), and up till I got married 5 years later I still felt a twinge of pain and maybe regret whenever I saw him. I would say that the process of recovering and finally letting go depends on our individual personalities. I would also say that having someone to help you forget is a big factor.
@Anne19 (300)
• Philippines
25 Jul 08
Oh.. Sometimes I wonder why is it easy to fall in love and it takes so long to forget. I'm just thankful that at least before I let him go, I fight for him. So maybe even though it will take me a long time to forget him, at least I know I did everything to keep him. But I believe in destiny. If he we are meant to be it will take place, if not, then I'll pray time will be my good friend. Thanks for your comment polaris714.