My Dad

Canada
November 14, 2008 10:10am CST
My father passed away Nov 2 he had been diagnosed with Lung cancer back in April. His health was relatively ok for a while then the radiation started and biopsies he picked up a bug and never really recovered from it. He got out of the hospital on my birthday Oct 2 and said he would never go back. We agreed and my mother and I felt we could take care of him. On top of the lung cancer he also had copd and a bad heart. He got sick again Halloween night and my mother and I never left his side. for 2 long days and nights he laboured to breath and finally sunday morn he said he had enough I told him he did not need to fight anymore I loved him and if he had to go he should. This was the hardest thing I have ever done. Withing ten mins he was gone, I will miss him so much he was a huge part of my life my parents and my husband and I bought a house together 7 years ago and life has been so good. His passing has left a huge hole. We are holding up but it is so different around here I keep expecting him to come home and he never will. I love you Dad keep a space open for me in heaven ok.
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• United States
14 Nov 08
When my brother was killed someone wrote me a note and all it said was "It never gets better, you just get used to it" Its true, 5 years now and ive just gotten used to the fact ill never see him again. The first year was complete shock, the second angry, third taking care of my mom and dad, fourth moving abroad, and now fifth everyones a little little little teeny tiny bit better, but its the same, hes not here.
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• Canada
14 Nov 08
I am afraid for the future without him, not that I can't do it i just do know how right now. I know it will be hard and I will miss him everyday life has to go on he would not want it any other way.