November is not a good Month for me
November 19, 2008 12:08am CST
I can say this is my worse month in year 2008. i can feel that i have given a big responsibility and have a sad moments. November 8 - we confined my mother-in-law to the hospital because of her nervous break down and a mind heart attack. November 10 - was the birthday of my son and we celebrate his day to the hospital just to have a family gathering and we try to have a complete family celebration. November 17 - i receive a very bad news from my long distance family, telling that my father was dead. The horrible feeling that i could not explain my emotion receiving a shocking news. November 28 - my mother's birthday November 29 - my father's burial I feel that i have a loaded sacks on my shoulder that i could not breath well when i am alone. I try to be strong to my extension family here like my parents in law but deep in my heart i wanted to shout to get out what's inside of it. The only thing i do now is to share my sadness to my co mylotters so that i can express my feelings just to lessen my moments of trials.
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19 Nov 08
Hello mylottians thank you for posting your comments. I am sorry . What i say is,its happened so dont think of the past.Think what about you going to do next. We MYLOTTERS are here for you to bring the essence of happiness which you feel which si not with you now.So be bold and face the life with of the blessing of your father. Thank you have a nice time keep mylotting.
19 Nov 08
thanks for your message i really appreciate you kindness. yes it is important to think the future if what will be my next step. my family and i decided to go to my parents home to attend the burial of my father. the last time that i visited my parents was last April 2008, their 50th year wedding anniversary and that time we have shared many happy moments and then now i am excited come home but now i want to come back home and it is in different situation. it is a kind of hesitation to look at my father inside the coffin.
21 Nov 08
im sorry for what happened... but just expressing yourself in here eases the burden and pains in your heart. we all go through stages wherein we feel so down, but as my kid had said, life is good, and there are still a lot of good things that will come. but as of this moment, cry if you have to... let the pain go through your tears...