I feel a little self concious....ok, really alot....
November 21, 2008 6:27pm CST
So I am having this emotional thing going on and I've gained alot of unwarented weight. The weight came on rather suddenly and I became even more self concious than I already was(which was already alot). So I went to a therapist today and she said that the stress and anxiety that I have been having is triggering a chemical in my brain which is depositing in my mid section. It is called corticosteroids. Anyway, I'm in the process of getting approved for bariatric surgery and this will take a few months and in the process have to undergo some psychotherapy so that the surgery will be a success. Anyway, when I went to pick up my daughter from her first playdate, the mom was sitting on the couch and her and I were talking and I couldn't figure out what she was staring at, as it certainly wasn't my face. It was like a man staring at your chest the whole time your talking. Well, after I left, I finally figured it out...she was staring at my stomach. Thinking that I was pregnant and keeping it a secret and she was trying to decide weather or not to ask me about the due date. I know this b/c I just got asked yesterday when I picked her up from school by another mom when I was due. So I had to defend myself then and now I have this other mom staring at my belly wondering about when I was due and why I wasn't telling her about it. I feel like crap. Really badly. I was already self concious and felt horrible for the way I look right now and I'm trying to get rid of it, but part of it is stress related and I cannot correct that right now. I just feel like crap and am not quite sure what to do. I can't go around yelling at ppl that I'm NOT PREGNANT but it really hurts my feelings when they assume that.