when did you stat beleiving in god?can you tell me why do you beleibe in god?

I started believing in some form of god within the last couple of months before that I was more of an atheist. I started to believe in myself as the god of my life, and I started regarding other individuals as separate entities for me to draw off of and for me too help create with.

I was raised as a believer in God. I am the happier for it. Just assume I wasn't given my religious inputs and I had my life coming the way it did.There would have been moments of extreme depression.I have been saved of all that. as far as I can remember though there were and are testing times my faith in Him never wavered.There were questions in jest like perhaps an atheist would ask. But they are only friendly play with God. One must relate to God as closely one can, on a one-to-one relationship. God is just not bothered whether anybody believes in Him or not. His Universe(s) would go on with thousands and thousands of turning from believers to non believers and vice versa. Now why do I continue to believe in God even though I have grown up and can think for myself? Yeah I have grown up. My questions about life have also grown. It is now not about wish fulfilling. My questions today are why my life is the way it is? Why not in some other way? Is it predetermined then? If not everything is predetermined how much of it is? How much is the free will? There are several questions like these for which the answers that Science or Scientific Thinking give me are not satisfactory. That is when I think it is sensible to think of a Higher Reality that is Itself the Cosmic Law that ordains life to follow the path it does. By this I am definitely not submitting to fatalism or accepting to be a mute bystander. I will act with all the resources at my command, but give allowance for the results to take the shape they will, and try to understand the role and the the game played by what every generally calls God.