Ready for the nut house

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I have always had issues with sleeping ever since I was very little.When my father would be late coming home from work we would all know he was at the bar.He would then climb in my bedroom window to get in the house after my mother would lock the doors on him.I don't know why she didn't lock my window,I guess she wanted him to get in the house,she just didn't want it to be easy for him.On nights like this I would not be able to sleep.At first I would lay awake waiting for him,then I would hold my breath and pretend sleep while he stumbled in and fell through the window not really climb.Then they would have a loud fight and none of us could sleep. Now as an adult I still feel that fear of anticipation when I try to sleep.I know it doesn't make sense but it keeps me up at night.I have tried many different pills and stuff,sometime I fall asleep but only for about an hour then I wake right back up and find myself listening and waiting.I can't seem to get more then 3 hours of broken sleep a night then I have to work all day. It wasn't always this bad and I am trying to figure out why it has been like this now for about 3 weeks,I really feel like it is going to put me in the nut house.One night I only slept about one hour and on top of all the nights of too little sleep this night really put me under.I swear I was seeing things in work the next day.Anyone here have any ideas I would love some help. Jas