My miscarriage a year ago

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I had thee worst miscarriage a year ago. Firstly, I got pregnant at a very stressful time in my life, it was a big 'accident', I didn't want any children with the guy I was with, but most importantly I AM AGAINST ABORTION. I am against abortion, for myself! I would never even consider it no matter what. But last year that all changed. I am still shocked that I even made the appointment to get it done. I was a WRECK. It's amazing how thing can change in desperate times. Anyways, I never did get the abortion, I miscarried naturally, most likely from all the stress. I was about 8 weeks along. I had two children already, and at the time was going through a separation with my husband and wanted to divorce him (divorced now!), i was trying to kick my boyfriend out (who got me pregnant, DONE AND DONE!), also trying to kick my roommate out (DONE!). My life was chaotic! I was surrounded by STRESS! I had a dream one night I started to miscarry, the next day, I did for real. I had to go to the hospital because of the pain I was in. It was quite awful. And I actually could feel intense contractions. It was a horrible time in my life. But now, a year later, I feel a lot stronger! I know myself better, I have gone to hell and back and survived! I LOVE where I am now in my life. It's amazing how life 'teaches' you. Even when you DON'T want to learn. It was the breaking point for me to get on the right track with my life, and to eliminate all my stresses. I often wonder though, if it was a girl or boy....But I'll never know...