My Children

United States
October 16, 2009 2:27pm CST
I'm the one who is locked up,but it is my two little girls that are doing the most suffering.My wife and I had a girl and she had a daughter from a previous relationship.I loved her just as much as my own daughter.Since being locked up,I have been having to talk with my girls through letters and every so often a lucky phone call.Their mom doesn't like them talking to me on the phone.She want's the girls to forget about me and have a relationship with the man she has been dating.My daughter has been telling me that this man has asked her a number of times about the missing money.My ex wife asked me for months after my arrest to to tell her where it was. so that we could hire a lawyer.I keep telling them that the money I had came from some lucky gambling I was doing.So know they have my two kids brain washed into thinking I have money stashed away somewhere.My relationship with them is getting very stressed.Each time they get a letter or talk to me,my ex and her new boyfriend drill them for information.I very worried that it will get to the point where they will not want to talk to me.It hurts so bad being here and not being in their lives.I'm very fortunate to have been accepted into the program here for higher learning.I'm going to be taking some college courses to learn about counseling young offenders.I hope that maybe with what I have learned, I can teach someone to stop before they make the same life shattering mistakes that I have.I just hope that with all the grief people are putting the girls through,that they will still love me when I get out.
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4 responses
janedell
@jndlponti (2402)
• Philippines
17 Oct 09
i really hope your daughters will read this... i'm sure it'll make their day. they're so lucky to have a dad that love them so dearly (well, look at others...they don't care for their children). doing something like enrolling and succeed on it is a BIG probability that no matter how your ex and her boyfriend now is telling them--would turn out lies! you're gonna prove to your daughters that what they've picture you as their dad when they we're still so young, that you are their only hero, is true.
prisoner101
@prisoner101 (13)
• United States
19 Oct 09
Dear jndlponti,Thank you very much for your response.It feels good to hear positive feedback.I don't get a chance to really talk with anyone in my family because of the cost of the collect calls.I do try and send as many letters as i can.I don't want my children feeling like i abandoned them on purpose.I hate that i have done this to them.I know my ex is mad for this happening and she does take it out on the girls.Now they are feeling like strangers in their own home.I'm sure the guy she is with is taking notice of this and feeding right in with it.My youngest girl has been having problems with school and last i heard she was going to be seeing a counselor.I know they sometimes do help,but at that age she will be stereotyped as being a problem kid or trouble maker because she needed to see one.She may even start believing it herself.I feel to blame for a lot of this.Hopefully they will see that i'm doing what i can inside and know that it's not all useless to keep being positive.Like i said before thank you for your response.
cutelilbastart
@hexeduser22 (7253)
• Philippines
17 Oct 09
I sure hope you do well and nothing unfortunate happens to you again. I'll pray for you and share your story to help people to open their minds and be mindful of their lives
doormouse
@doormouse (4599)
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16 Oct 09
well done for enrolling in the courses,hope you pass with flying colours,,,your wife is wrong for wanting this new man to be their dad,they have a dad already,my kids dad is totally useless and hardly ever see's his kids,but i've always told them he is their dad and i'd never try to get them to call someone else dad,anyway,as you are where you are all you can do is persevere with the girls and make sure they know you love them,you could always write letters but not actually give them to them,you could explain what happened bout the money and stuff,and how you feel etc,then when you're released or when you feel the time is right you can give them the letters
rosepedal64
@rosepedal64 (4188)
• United States
17 Oct 09
Hi prisoner That is great for you enrolling into classes. I had just suggested that to you on one of your other discussions. Keep taking all that you can. Another could course is a rehab course that offers a completion date. That is always good. As far as it goes for the kids you keep writing and calling them when you can. They will not forget you and by all means they will still love you. My son doesn't even get to talk to his girls on the phone. They live with their grandmother and she doesnt like him and so she wont let them talk to him. He is going to fight for visitation when he gets out so that he can see his kids. Be safe and keep the attitude in check at all times. Remember to smile daily.