How did this happen.
October 30, 2009 8:50am CST
Two weeks ago I would have told you what a terrible mess my life was. I will be having phone, internet and cable cut off for non payment. I stand a fair chance of having my car repoed. And I have to move to a very small apartment to cut expenses. I can't find a steady job. Two weeks ago I would have been screaming my outrage to the universe. But in these last two weeks I have come to realize that I can't keep making excuses. Oh the economy is bad. Oh I can't find a job. Oh I'm going to lose everthing. I am in the spot I am in because I put myself here. What has changed? My attitude. Does that make life (all better?) NO. Is it changing the way I deal with things you bet it is. I have realized that there is a huge difference between what I need and what I want. I am learning that yes being grateful for what I do have makes a huge impact on my life. I am learning I have a lot to give back to the universe. and most importantly I am slowly learning to let go of fear and have faith in what ever name you want to attach to GOD. The life force, the universe whatever What I am now is not what I will be forever and the lessons that are being driven home are proof of that. No matter how bad things are I will cling to my dreams and work towards the passion that gets me up in the morning. I wish you all bright blessings.