Do I really have to?
December 23, 2009 5:08am CST
It's Christmas already but i don't feel like celebrating... I spent a moment with HIM earlier and said sorry because I can't feel the spirit like everyone else... And the reason is because I will be spending the holidays away from my son... this is supposed to be our first Christmas together, but things happened and I can 't go home... I'm crying my heart out because I don't have the reason to celebrate... and I'm trying to convince myself.. i don't really have to right?
23 Dec 09
Hi rhyme; You do have the right to feel the way you do. I know others who have been in the same situation and it is sad. Although if you remember the true meaning of Christmas, perhaps this will help you be able to find peace this Christmas. Eventhough you can not be there in person, you are in spirit, within him. Perhaps think at times, of when you will be available to spend Christmas with your son. That will give you something to look forward to. Maybe send word to have video taken so that you can look back on your son enjoying the Christmas day. Since it is his first Christmas, he is still quite young. It is all new to him. Everything happens as it does for a reason. I don't think he will hold it against you that you can not be there this year but when you will be, it will be all the more fun for him. So relax. Embrace the meaning of Christmas and remember, you are with him andhe with you, in Spirit. Bless you!