do you ever fell like your just going to explode

i think i know how you feel, or maybe close to what you are describing. there was a time my phone would always ring with my friends telling me all about their woes and troubles and concerns and of course i didn't want to turn them away, but when i tried to find a shoulder to cry on or an ear to hear me, they would always find a way to turn the subject back to them. i didn't exactly explode, more like implode. emotionally everything just crashed in on me and i took several steps away from everyone- slightly damaging some of my relationships because i couldnt communicate with them on how i was feeling. i learned from that incident that you do have to take care of yourself and you do need to find someone who will let you lean on them as much as they lean on you. hopefully you wont explode and will find an outlet.