Mylotters please help me!

Malaysia
June 6, 2010 4:53pm CST
So, this is my problem. No 1 I have severe depression at the age of 16. Well it has become better now with medication and the way I look towards life. However, there are a few I want to know. Why are some friends going from good to bad? Why are there alliance between them to trick somebody innocent and somebody who treat them like a true friends? Why are they ignore and pretend not to admit they has make someone life's suffer with depression? No 2 Everytime I look for a job, I always think that if there is a will there is a way. So, I go through 2-3 times interview and got a job usually. And I work for 3 months maximum and resign. I got treated like a dog most of my jobs and I get scolded everyday and was even feel threaten with the job most of the time. Now, I have lost confidence but yet I am telling my self I must fight to the end. But I am tired and know the game of this world. I know that I won't work for long and will keep changing job until I found the right job. Have you all ever heard of a woman who interview for like 100 times and still don't manage to get a job and she suicide? Well, this how I feel. And I have tried online jobs as well but earn only $9 in a month. What job I should look for except from telemarketing, selling insurance and those boring office job? I don't have any money to invest, though. I hope mylotters can spend some time read my discussion and answer it as I really need solution for the problem as it has been a while. It has gotten seriously in last year until now I still don't have a solution and am thinking nowhere in this world I could survive without being a slave at work.
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@insulin (2479)
• Philippines
12 Jun 10
Now I know why you have doubts in life..Lol Well you feel that way because yes your suffering from depression and that is normal effects or being emotional and think negative in some situation.Which medicine are you using?Which Anti-depressant?was you stopping it already or still your maintenance?The wife of my ex-brother inlaws boyfriend is also suffering in severe depression and she tried to stop her medication and put into the point that it made her worst.You need to at least visit your doctor if you feel something different around.I know this is not easy time for you but put in mind that negative thinking will make it worst.Don't put or plant negative thoughts in yours,Surely it will be bad for you.
• Malaysia
12 Jun 10
I know. I'll be seeing my dr in June this month also. LAst time I have change some meds, but it made me feel terrible. On that day, I screamed at night and I heard ppl calling and talking to me. I even scold workers of the McD and they r scared. So now I am not sure I want a change coz it is different each time and I know I can't handle it.
@insulin (2479)
• Philippines
12 Jun 10
You surely need to go to your Physician,I think the medicine you are taking is not really getting suit to you. That will be difficult. Better go there as soon as possible.Get well soon.
@Cutie18f (9551)
• Philippines
6 Jun 10
It is all up to you to change things for the better. No one can make you like your job. No one else can make you make improvements to yourself and how you look at work but yourself. Unfortunately, life is like that. We need to work and we need to put some effort at liking what we are doing to make a living. Go, try it for one more time, get a job and start liking it. When you get your next job, no matter what it is, give your best in it, have presence of mind and follow rules so you won't get scolded. Good luck to you and I hope things will improve.