So what if I was an addict?

your message - I do not want to do this, but you made me do this.
@labea17 (443)
Philippines
June 11, 2010 12:01am CST
Many people judge me because I was hooked on drugs. Was meaning it's all in the past. Now there are people who will do anything just to bring you down even if you are doing everything just to succeed. What's wrong with these people? I admit I was hooked, but I am changing now. Trying to find a good job, but now people would judge me based on that? To you MR/MS NISHIP2009, do not judge me just because I was an addict. You did not know what I had to go through just to get it out of my system and stop pretending that you are not the niship2009 that I was referring to. Here is my proof: the message that you sent mt. I am not mad at you, I am just hurt. I know that karma will get to you eventually. So have a great life ahead of you.
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8 responses
@tomitomi (5429)
• Singapore
13 Jun 10
I may not have come close enough to know how you actually feel labea. I may not have known you personally either. But knowing that I can share a little here can be just as meaningful to me and hope it is for you too. Enough has been said about the past. Cry it out, shout it loud, whatever. I think it's time to look to the future now. It's best to forgive and forget. Love yourself. Breathe the fresh air outside. Look at the horizon, take a closer look at the flowers, walk bare foot and feel the grass, the earth beneath, play in the rain... Pick all the pieces up and just move on. Blessings!
@tomitomi (5429)
• Singapore
13 Jun 10
It is sense to me as it is to you. I love this spirit!
@labea17 (443)
• Philippines
13 Jun 10
Hello, tomitomi. I appreciate all of your support. You know what? You are right. I should just move on with my life and forget everything that had happen in my life. I may not be able to change the past, which was what I wanted, but I can control my future now by being in-charge of my present. I should also forgive other people who have hurt me in any way because it is still better to forgive because if God forgives us for our mistakes even if we have done it plenty of times, I can do that too. I don't know if I made any sense with what I said. LOL. Have a great day and may God bless us always and shower us with so much blessings! :)
@jules67 (2788)
• Philippines
12 Jun 10
Like what respondent said, people do not know that you have been through. Oftentimes, we judge people on face value. It is best that communicate your thoughts so that you will be understood by the people around you. It is always best to talk about your problems than just keeping it to yourself. In that way you can gain more support from the people close to you.
@labea17 (443)
• Philippines
13 Jun 10
Hello, Jules. I want to talk to other people especially with my friends and family regarding what I am feeling and what I am going through. I want to share with them everything about me, but the thought that they might leave me and avoid me if they knew the truth. I want their support, but I still have many hesitations. Thank you for your response. Have a great day and may God bless us alwways!
@jules67 (2788)
• Philippines
14 Jun 10
Hi labea17. It is very normal to have hesitations. I do have a lot of them, even in smaller issues. There is always this fear at the back of my mind. So many what ifs. I heard a priest once said that we are always pre-occupied with worries. At most times, they are killing the possibility of a good and brighter future ahead of us. I have come to realize that there must be something or someone that I should hold on to, to make me feel stronger and to do the things that I have always been feared of doing. I do not want to sound too religious. But it is the truth, only God has the power to take away the fear in me. Only God is the one who could make me feel strong and who will accept me with all my flaws.
• United Kingdom
11 Jun 10
This is the sorry state of the world that we live in! Everyone passing judgement on others whilst forgetting about the imperfections in their own lives! I think it's very admirable that you are trying to change your life! There will always be those willing to judge and condemn you in relation to your past but I say just forget about them as they are not worth it! At the end of the day you can become a stronger character as a result of your past. I think if you are doing the right thing now then that is all that counts. The good thing also is, you get to choose who you allow into your life, you can choose your friends as it were! You should choose people that are going to support you and encourage you with this huge uphill task that you face. I also believe in the law of Karma! Do bad and bad is coming back at you whether you like it or now! Do good and good will return to you a hundred times over! Anyway, all I can say is I wish you the best of luck with your plans and it sounds as though you are on the right path! Andrew
@labea17 (443)
• Philippines
13 Jun 10
Hello, Andrew! Thank you for your response. I am hurt by how other people judge me. They are judging me based on something that I have done in the past, and I don't think it's fair. It is also not fair because sometimes people judge me even they do not personally know me. They just judge me based from what they've heard or what they've seen. You're right, people make judgments about other people without having to look in the mirror first to see their own imperfections. It is easy for them to judge others. I have also became a stronger person because of what had happen to me. I should not care about them anymore because they do not really matter. I also have the option now to choose who I want to be friends with, and you're right, I should choose friends who will accept me and would not judge me. I know that karma will get to the people who do bad things eventually. It may not be in this lifetime, but it surely will come to him/her. Have a great day and may God bless us always!
• India
11 Jun 10
Hi labea, The point is that some people have very fixed notion of impression;they aren't ready to take the risk of giving a chance to put themselves in insecurity.Leaving them apart there is much space on earth to accommodate or spare a changed Labea.My advice is not to loose hope until you get the right kind of job from a right employer because even if you would get a chance to work with them who were otherwise unwilling to take you,you had to face problems of different kind.Just get so desperate in your way to get job that people find your urge to recover from a Doom!May God bless you!
@labea17 (443)
• Philippines
13 Jun 10
Hello, yourjannat! Thank you for your comment and your kind words. I really appreciate it. I am doing everything and anything that I can do just to prove to people that I have changed and I am worthy and not useless. It was and is still very hard to do. I tried pleasing other people just so they would like me. But I am more enlightened now. I have realized that I do not need to please other people just so they would accept me. I reaized that I must learn to accept myself first before other people will do. I always trust in the Lord that he will give me what I deserve and that I will find an employer who will not fool me and accept me. I am still not losing any hope and I'm never going to give up. Have a great day and may God bless us always!
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@zralte (4178)
• India
11 Jun 10
First of all, Congratulations on your achievement. You should be proud. Kicking addiction of any kind is not easy. Okay, on to the topic, I just don't see the connection with the message and this topic. The message didn't say anything about your addiction. May be I am just daft. Care to enlighten the situation?
@zralte (4178)
• India
11 Jun 10
OK, I understand the situation clearly now. That is a horrible thing to do. Yes, I have seen the message that you've posted. I am sorry that you have to waste your time on a scammer. Don't be discouraged by the bad people. Be strong, believe in yourself. You have made the right decision. Move on, forget about her. Those kind of people always fall down sooner or later.
• Philippines
11 Jun 10
There are people who will really look down on you and sometimes will give you a hard time, but don't listen to them, the important is the new you. Always look to yourself the way God look at you...he always look at our best not on our worst and shortcoming. I'm so proud and happy for you, people who can control themselves are strong people and you are one of them. You overcome the test of life and I pray that you will continue to improve your life so you can be a role model and inspiration to everyone. About finding a job...I've been trying to find a job myself but mostly I was discriminated because of my handicapped but I believe in God that he is in control so don't worry hang on to him and he will give you a beautiful and bright future. God bless you.
@labea17 (443)
• Philippines
11 Jun 10
Hello luisadannointed. Thank you for your kind words and I really appreciate it. That's why I am telling no one about my past because I'm afraid that they will just discriminate me or avoid me just because of what I have done in the past. I'm really working hard to become a better person and I will always trust in God that everything will turn out ok and things will get better, eventually. Let us just put all our worries and the hurt we are feeling to God because he is the only one who can help us. May God bless you and your family.
@DanBen (346)
• India
11 Jun 10
hi there, friend people don't really understand what you have been through unless and until they have gone through the very same. People have the tendency to act all holy and stuff, cause they are simply ignorant. Instead of empathizing, they sympathies ones sordid life. Please don't feel that you are the only one going through this, there are a million others who have gone through a similar situation and still moved on despite these typical characters who are self proclaimed critics. Please ignore such people and move on to someone who actually care and understands...
@labea17 (443)
• Philippines
11 Jun 10
Thank you very much for the support, DanBen. No matter what I do there would always be people who will want to bring me down. I won't care about them anymore because I can be happy with or without them. I Sometimes people would symphatize with you, but eventually you will see their true colors. I know that I am not alone and I still have a lot of friends who will support me and my family who will love me no matter what happens. God bless you and your family. :)
• United States
19 Jul 10
People should not judge you because of your past failures. If that were the case we are all horrible people because we have all failed at some point in our lives. Congrats on your new life.