And I love him so....

@Anne19 (300)
Philippines
July 7, 2010 11:02pm CST
I've been in a lot of relationship but the last one is the most significant. He taught me how to laugh a lot with the most silly things. He made me realize that no matter where we are for as long as we are together, we're fine. But most importantly, he made me believe that there was indeed one person meant for me.... HIM! I'm hurting so much, two weeks ago we fought about something that may seem silly to others. A week after, I can't resist him anymore so I call him, at that time we haven't seen each other for almost 9 days then. I was so looking forward on spending my weekend with him, only to found out that he has already made some plans with his friends. I was waiting for him to invite me to join them but he didn't. I told him that how come his already making plans without me and he replied that I can't expect him to just sit down and wait for me when I told him already that I don't wanna talk to him. He's right, but a few days before that I called him to apologize and he accepted it and I thought we're already ok, but I'm guess I'm wrong. I miss him terribly but he's not calling me, no anything so I guess I just have to start all over again for a million times. It's so difficult coz I not only lost a boyfriend, but a bestfriend, a companion and a supporter. : (
7 responses
• Philippines
8 Jul 10
I don't know, but sometime if a person can make you laugh or brings color to your world it doesn't guarantee that he is the one until he commits his love for you in actions and in words. A guy who loves you will never let you chase after him after the long post in your relationship, and a guy who corrects you in some kind of manners in your relationship for your own good maybe he really cares about you. Don't worry, always keep your faith and never lose hope to God that one day he will bring you to the man he only created for you, just prepare yourself, and always put the hope in your heart and it will keep the smile and joy in your life until he came and ask for your hand. God bless. you. A guy who fear God, and never let your reputation at risk in front of everybody or between you and him are the guy who will never let you hurt or cry that does not worth of anything. God bless you. Aja! Don't get hurt anymore by the same guy, he does not deserve your time and beside you already did your part. Aja! there's so much reasons to be busy about, to laugh, and to cry that can make your life to be the best.
• Vietnam
8 Jul 10
Calm down. Everything may be not as bad as you think. He left you now, and he must regret because of his behave. You can get someone more wonderful than him. God bless you.
@Anne19 (300)
• Philippines
9 Jul 10
Thank you, but have you ever fell in love that it seems nobody will do except that person. That is how I feel. Every night I will be waiting for him to call me until I close my eyes at night and then the next day, I'll be waiting for him to call me all throughout the day, even just to say that I need to pick up some of my stuff in his place. It's already so pathetic and I'm trying my damn best to be ok, I go out with friends, busied myself at work but I just can't stop thinking about that d**n guy...
• Indonesia
9 Jul 10
I am sorry to hear that, but I am as a man sometimes feel terrible with a small things, or ma be I can tell some a silly things. But I think this is a very valuable lessons for you, and for me too... You know, in my perspection, to maintain a relation ship is not only with love. The most important is a commitment, but if he not in commitment anymore, I think you can try not thinking about him anymore.
@Anne19 (300)
• Philippines
9 Jul 10
Thanks! I don't know it just s**ks coz I'm so into him but I don't really know what to do now... I just feel like I was in a daze, we haven't had any formal closure so I was still in that phase of hoping against hope and denial that it seems everything's ending...
@maean_19 (4655)
• Philippines
8 Jul 10
Hi there! I don't know what to say here since you do not have an issue what a respondent might say. But I assume that you want an advise of what to do. Well, I was in that situation lately. When my boyfriend is out of town with his friends, he has a hard time texting me or calling me up. I would end up calling and no one is receiving it. His usual alibis are that he left his cp on his room or that the battery is low and that it is charging, etc. I of course do not believe it because he has 2 mobile phones and quite unbelievable that he has to leave both or that both cellphones are low in battery, etc. With that, I would be terribly crying and waiting for him to text or call. More so, he would go out with his friends and does not ask or invite me if I would want to join him and he does not. And every time that I want to ask him if he could join me to go to church or watch in the theater, and he end up saying that he has other plans. That really is hurting. I told him that I felt bad for it. Good thing, he apologized and we are fine again. I was advised by my friends here at mylot that naturally men or guys are insensitive. They want us to speak our minds and remind them ahead or what we want. Do not assume my friend. Speak up and talk to him. Let him know that you feel bad and the reason. Break the gap.
@Anne19 (300)
• Philippines
9 Jul 10
But I'm so afraid of rejection already, the last time I've apologize to him it's just seem we've made up already then before I knew it he was already making his own plans. I miss him so much but I guess I already did my part, I apologize and I told him that aren't we supposed to meet up after being apart for 9 days? but he already made plans which doesn't include. It really sucks. Like I always need to remind myself that I can't call him and I'm holding on to that very thin thread of self-control. Oh, I don't know now, I just feel so lost. It's like I crave to see him, to be with him but that just seem so pathetic already...
@hestylim (1210)
• Indonesia
8 Jul 10
Hi, I know how you feel. I feel that kind of things for quite sometimes. I know it must be hard, but you should really do it. Go on with your life, go out with your friends, make your day.. Probably he just need a time for himself.. He won't go anywhere.. When he is ok with his friends, he will be back to you.. Just be positive. Be happy!
@Anne19 (300)
• Philippines
9 Jul 10
I hope, I really hope but he wasn't that kind of guy. He always wants me to be with him and whenever we fight he will always call me and try to settle things. But not this time, though I've already apologize it just seem like it fell on a pair of deaf ears.... I hope I can be positive but it just hurts so so much!
• Philippines
8 Jul 10
Goodbyes have never been so easy.And consequently, starting all over again is much more difficult. But life must go one friend. I believe that when a person is really meant for you, you will and will meet each other along the way no matter how or what the circumstance may be. However,don't push yourself too hard.It's painful right? so cry it out loud. Cry when it hurts. Go find a wide space, a mountain, a solemn wide park and shout your pains out. guarantee you, it will help. As I understand in what you said, you did your part so I think it's already time for him too to do his part. Don't cry over spilled milk, friend. Go out to the world cause there are many things to unravel yet.
@Anne19 (300)
• Philippines
9 Jul 10
what if he chooses not to do his part? Oh we don't have any closure at all, and I'm hoping against hope that will be ok. We just seem so perfect for each other, and if I'll be given a chance to be with him again, I promise myself that I will try to hold on and never let him go again.. Oh it's really ouchy...I like to smile with that term to lighten my mood but eversince we broke up, things doesn't seem as alright as before... I miss him so so terrribly!
• Philippines
8 Jul 10
for my own opinion. he dont love u that much. in the first place he should have missed you too in that 9 days u have not seen each other. but what he did? he made plans with his friends? instead of making plans to make it up to u? whatever fight u had, big or small it should not be the reason for him be like that. i means his love for u is so shallow that he easily gave up. i am sorry for being rude. i am just being honest. good luck!
@Anne19 (300)
• Philippines
9 Jul 10
you're not being rude. Thank you I think I need to have someone tell me that, although at this point I honestly haven't absorb it yet.
• Denmark
8 Jul 10
Aww.. I have totally the same feeling.. I´ve tried to get my heart broken thousand of times.. or at least a couple.. and It changed me. I´ve all my life had this special sight at life, no one else have. This special feeling which tries to explain me everything about everything, which may sound weird. But as life goes on, I try my best to keep calm. M.S.A