I want to go back to work but it's causing problems for my family.....

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My youngest child is 3 yrs old and I've been itching to go back to work for some time now. At first I didn't want to go to work because of my young children. But now that the last child is already 3 and I'm already 31 I feel like it's time for me to go back to work. My husband provides enough for our family that I don't really need to go to work. But i feel the need to go out and work because I'm not really the typical female who likes to cook and clean all day everyday. Don't get me wrong, I love my children and my husband dearly (well sometimes when my husband isn't so overbearing). I just feel like I'm wasting away at home. In our society in the Philippines, it has always been viewed that married women are always found at home, taking care of the children, cooking and cleaning the house. Even if there are maids, helpers or nannies. Women only need to work if their family financial situation makes it a need for them to work. I am so torn because I want to work and at the same time I feel miserable staying here and following society dictates. I told my parents my problems and they said for me to bear with it because I'm married and I have children. It's the same thing with my mom's brother. But staying here at home is making me miserable and is starting to affect me in many ways. I'm being more negative and every little comment from my husband makes me feel like it's a negative barb being thrown at me. Sometimes I take out my frustration by eating and so I have gained weight, which my husband points out to me sometimes. He thinks I'm lazy and don't do anything but watch movies on my computer and go on Facebook. After arguing with him this past week I now have his support to go and work although it's going to be far because we live in the province and the work I'm going after is in another city. But I'm still worried what my relatives will say. I know that only we can decide what makes us happy but I can't help the fact that it affects me what my parents and relatives will say.