I would love to regain what I've lost

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I'm 67 years old and have come to the realization that something is missing in my life that I used to possess. I had it when I was younger and I don't know exactly when I lost it. It came to a head today when I went fishing on a pier. In my youth you couldn't stop me from getting on that pier and fishing all night. The excitement was overwhelming, the anticipation was invigorating. Today I had a minor problem while fishing and had to return home for a few moments. The problem was inconsequential. However, it was all I could do to force myself to return. I really believe that it wouldn't have mattered a "hill of beans" if I never went back. Now that I reflect back, that is way it has been for a very long time. Basically, I've lost the excitement of my youth; the awe, wonder, anticipation of experiencing things that I know I would have loved as a teen. The closest I come to that youthful feeling any more is when my son invites me to go fishing with him. But, even so, the slightest hindrance (hangnail, headache, a drop of rain) would be excuse enough not to go. It's easier to find excuses not to do things than it used to be. Some of you older generation, tell me if you are experiencing these things. Maybe some of you young people are experiencing this phenomenon. If so, I feel for you. If anyone has found what I lost, will you share with me? What excites you?