I DON'T wanna break up to make up!!!

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Well me and my boyfriend has finally resolved some issues but it was after days of fighting. It had us both feeling really confused because after all the yelling and emotions we still didn't understand each other and no matter how many times we tried to talk clam and comprehend each others point of view one or the other would get amped back up and it would be a fight all over again. During the fighting sometimes my boyfriend would be real upset to the point where he would walk away and I would feel unsettled because I didn't get the things I wanted to express off of my chest and it would go sour the next time we see each other because I still want to discuss and when he tell me that he doesn't want to talk about it it makes me feel like he doesn't care about my feelings or what I want. On the other hand sometime when we fight I get so upset and so frustrated but he will be like just come here and kiss me or come here and hug me. I'm so angry at this point that I don't want to be touched with sentimental gestures. It feels good to finally have everything back to how it was but it took a while to agree to disagree or whatever we did. I just sit back and wonder now why did we have to go through all of that. Days of being apart and not speaking, Days of wondering and assuming. For nothing when neither of us wanted to be upset or breakup or apart from each other. It make me feel queasy and sick to be away from him and I don't want to be apart if its not demanding like a traveling trip or something of the sort.