can anybody please help me understand this.... :(

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i just dont know why. is it me over reacting, or is my situation really bad? my brother beat me again, about 4 hours ago. my mom told him he cant so out with my cousin to the beach. the pain i felt both emotionally and physically lessen, i was somehow glad that my mom is starting to realize my brother's wrong doings, im glad that she knows how to make punishments. my brother left the house and went to a net cafe nearby and just a few mins ago he came back. my mom and i was in the living room when he asked her again if he can come with my cousins. i was so shacked, i was about to break down when my mom told him yes. i can't believe it!!! it thought i'll finally get justice for all the punches that i got, well i think it's just too good to be true. why is this happening to me?! i wanted to give up, i want to leave this life, this world but something's stopping me and i dont know what.... im so sick and tired of this!