Betrayal and Petty Nonsense!

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I'm a senior in high school, about to graduate in 12 days. I've always had a lot of trouble in school with socializing and being comfortable with myself, so I've never really had friends until my junior year in art class. I made this friend, her name will be Stephanie here. She had just moved to our school the year before, because her mom was unfit to be a parent and she was now living with her aunt and uncle. She kind of connected with me because I'm just different I guess, and I'm not afraid to be a little vulgar and out there, but I'm also very caring and would always look out for her. But for the longest time, she's always kind of had a sort of jealousy towards me, because I'm better at art, and she thinks that I'm more attractive than she is (she's admitted these things before). But I never feel that I should hold myself back to make anyone else feel better about themselves! She has a controlling sort of way, she seems to like reprimanding people, kind of punishing people if they say something or do something that she doesn't personally approve of. So, most of the time, she'd be nice to me, and I'd make her laugh, but every once in a while, some b*tchiness would come out. I would just kind of avoid saying or doing anything that bothered her, because it was always easier that way. But I was always there for her. If she was on her period, I'd bring her almonds the next day and say "hey, you need some iron." And when her boyfriend moved to Arkansas, (she was going to move to be with him after graduation) but he broke up with her, I was always there when she just would go on about him constantly. I was happy to comfort her in any way I could. It is kind of sad, because she sort of .. begs for him to come back. Now, we only have about 12 days left until we graduate. She's been so very cold towards me for over a week now, but just normal enough that if I were to call her out on it, she'd deny it. But I haven't. I don't know if she's just mad at me, or annoyed at me for something, but I feel degraded, and disrespected. Tonight was prom, and I spent the whole night with my date. When we first walked in, she came up to us, but she just hugged my date and walked right by me. She's just acting weird, and I don't deserve it. I don't care if she thinks it's okay to do that because I'm a "loser" because I don't really have many other friends in school. That part isn't my fault, I'm not terribly socially incompetent, I've just had a lot of anxiety surrounding social situations that made going to school really lonely and scary. I'm so proud of myself because I've been overcoming these social anxieties, but I'm still not "cool" but godd*mn, aren't we way too old to alienate people based on that? I really thought she was better than that.