How do I get over this?

United States
July 20, 2011 11:50am CST
I've been with my boyfriend for a year and a few months. He's my first boyfriend and also the first person I've slept with. However, I'm not his first girlfriend and he's slept with only 2 other people before me. Sometimes this kind of gets me a little sad because he was my first which is really special, but I'm not his first, making me feel not as special. I know that this probably seems weird that it would bother me but sometimes it really does. Both of us know that we're going to spend the rest of our lives together so it's not like we'll be sleeping with anyone else ever. How can I get over this and not let it bother me so much? I try and tell myself that it doesn't matter if I wasn't his first, just as long as I'm his last. For the most part, it works but then there are somedays when it just really gets me down.
11 responses
@ellebj (784)
• Philippines
22 Jul 11
you already have the answer in your discussion.. you must think that you are the last... what is important now is today, you and him and the future.. whe he say he loves you, believe in it and disregard those girls he have before.. i am the third girlfriend of my boyfriend now, though he is my second, but he knows that he is my greatest love, i haven't felt this kind of love from my first boyfriend and other puppy love suitors.. he is also the first one i slept with but i am not his first kiss nor his first petting thing.. but one thing i am sure, that when time comes that we are ready, it will be our first time to make love.. forget about his past girls.. don't worry about them, do what you can to make him happy.. after all you already had it, he will be the person you will spend with the rest of your life..
• United States
22 Jul 11
Thank you for your answer, it was really comforting. I guess I just think about his past too much and I let it get to me. It really shouldn't matter if I'm not the first, just as long as I'm the last he'll ever be with. He's told me many times before that he never knew he could love someone so much until he met me. He really loved his other girlfriends but then he said with me it's totally different and that he's never felt anything close to what he feels now. Even though it could sound like he's just making it up, I know he isn't, I can just tell when he looks at me and I can just feel his love. So really, I'm worrying myself over nothing. What is important is that we're together now and we'll be with each other for the rest of our lives. Thanks again for your response, I wish all the best to you and your current boyfriend!!
@ellebj (784)
• Philippines
22 Jul 11
thank you courtknee... you too.. wish you the best.. don't worry much, ok?
• United States
22 Jul 11
It's definitely something I'm working on :) Life is too short to worry over the things that have already happened and that I can't change. Thanks again for your encouragement
@pbbbsra (1214)
• Philippines
20 Jul 11
This is something you'll have to deal with for the rest of your life. You know the answer to your question and what you just have to do is to let the past go. You are together now and are in love with each other. You have to be thankful your man told you about his past and is honest. You knew from the start about his past and you have to accept it if you really love him.
• United States
20 Jul 11
Thank you for your response. I guess I really do need to just let it go, especially since I can't change anything about the past. Now that you pointed it out, I'm very grateful my man has been so honest with me. He tells me just about everything and this makes me trust him a lot. I really do love him and most of the time I don't think about his past. It's just part of life I guess and I just have to accept what already happened.
• Philippines
21 Jul 11
very well said pbbsra, It's a good advice. I couldn't agree more.
@eLsMarie (4346)
• Philippines
21 Jul 11
That's quite sad, because you are the problem. If you won't help yourself, there's a bigger chance that you're totally gonna lose him one day. If he's loyal and loving to you, I don't see the point to why you should give a damn about his exes. The best thing that you should do is to think maturely. With that, you'll surely act as a mature one.
@thetis74 (1525)
20 Jul 11
You really have to get over it or it will take over your happy life. I also had past relationships and I don't even think about it anymore. For me the last is always the sweetest and because he is with you then he must have forgotten the past ones. What you should be thinking about now is your relationship-the two of you together. And if you can't help but feel the same just be sure you do your best to help him totally forget about his past (in case if there are still memories) by being the best girl for him. And that he is with you because you are the best. I can understand why you can't relate because you have not been with someone else before. But you don't have to think like that.
• United States
20 Jul 11
Thank you, I do realize I have to get over it, it's just a little hard sometimes. We're both extremely happy together so I just need to let the past go because clearly he's not still thinking about the other girls. These responses have been really helpful and encouraging for me. This is something that I shouldn't be worried about because it's in the past and not doing anything for us. I just need to focus on our relationship together and try not to care that he's been with others because now we're together, most likely for the rest of our lives.
@Shlok369 (33)
• India
21 Jul 11
It z understandable when a girl remains in that kind of relationship ... Be more optimistic and clear in a relation .. u cant always be desperately thinking of him . Be vacuous , courageous enough move on when its time ...how many days u will be trying to be him , Make ur life... If he is in true love with u , he shall never leave u .. Above inspirations r just for time being ..No one can assure u he won't give up u .................... I'm trying to convince u is that life gives many options even for u , u got to wisely choose , coz ur the proprietor of ur life.... If he has left u , don't even think of second to abandon him ... .. U can find a better guy , even if its not first ......... And from positive side , make urself uniquely desirable to him ... Don't be a bore airheaded in front of him ... Show him every piece of ur love ... Make him feel that 'OMG , I won't find any other girl more understandable of my nature ' ................ Try to reciprocate his feeling ...................... Thatz it ........ U r done with ur part .. Left is on Jesus ........... Never make urself obliging to sorrow ...
• India
21 Jul 11
Dont feel bad . i may be rude , but itz true ... becoz u wont leave him whatever might happen ... but he can , he Already did ... ! twice . . So, pushing all the odds away . u r not the only girl who faces this ..... many have moved on .. Feel free to talk to me ........
@mande143 (20)
• United States
20 Jul 11
This is definitely an issue with some. But look at it this way. You both have found "THE ONE" to spend the rest of your life with. It's OK that one of you has more experience than the other, it brings some knowledge into the relationship. Feel happy he has chosen YOU to be with and don't fret over the past, because that's what it is, "The Past". Look forward and start creating your future together! This is one of those things that will not be as important as your time together increases! Congrats on finding "THE ONE" and enjoy your life ahead!
• United States
20 Jul 11
Thank you so much! Your response was really encouraging and had me look at the situation in a new way. I'm very thankful my guy has chosen me to be with and I guess I shouldn't let his past get in the way of my happiness. He truly makes me happy so it's really not fair for me to continue to be upset over what already happened. Thank you for your answer, now I'll definitely be focusing more on OUR life together and not let his past bother me.
@jen_n514 (218)
• Philippines
21 Jul 11
for me you don't have to worry regarding his past..what's important is you are his present and he's willing to be part of your future.. put yourself on his shoes..what if you were his first and he's not your first..what would you feel if he's bothered with your past relationships..i guess not a good feeling right?! we cant change everyone's past..best thing that you can do is ignore the thought and just be thankful that you have him now.. goodluck.. happy posting!:D
@nurseclare (2209)
• Philippines
21 Jul 11
That's a simple problem and you must get over it because it's his past. i f you love soeone you don't care about anything as long as he's not cheating on you. Good thing he is so open, some guys I know they had multiple girlfriends and there present lover accept them. What matters most is you love each other! :)
@Mvinluan (18)
• Philippines
21 Jul 11
Frankly speaking, I think you are not yet mature enough to deal with your first relationship. I belive what you feel is normal. You are still dealing with your first real relationship with a guy and you've given yourself to him so you naturally want things to be ideal and near perfect for the both of you. I am an expert on relationships and human nature but I have been in your shoes. I felt the same way as you did but as I got older and exposed to the realities of relationships, I learned to accept his past and moved on. I focused on being his present and probably his future too.
@Dymo75 (340)
• New Zealand
20 Jul 11
You're happyn now right? As long as you're sure that he really loves you, and he knows you're special despite not being his first, then it's all right. Love is also about trust, and if you can't trust him or whatever, then you can't ever fully love him. And I'm sure you love him very much.
@Maryr817 (58)
• United States
20 Jul 11
Just keep in mind you can't change the past. The future is what matters and if your his future then your the one that counts. So when the thought even pops up in your mind remember who he lay's down with at night and see's every morning ;)