Why I'm always misunderstood?

@Mysteria (209)
Philippines
September 14, 2011 4:10am CST
I have live my life in seclusion, I never have male friend or anyone, I started to walk in a lonely life since I'm a child. at first I didn't even notice it, because I can still breathe but time goes by and I feel like everything is being control, I never want to break free don't worry I just wanna understand why they chained me. I feel like I'm a prisoner even in my own mind, even in my own heart. I feel like my family is the one who will dictate who I will like or love and if I choose not to follow they will never accept or forgive me. They never realized I'm not like what they are thinking. I wonder why they keep on using dirty adjective when they are talking to me. Those words they are saying really hit me like no other.I live my life serving God,my family and people around me. I never go and hang out with anyone. I only go to work, church and during the time I'm studying I only go to school then home. I only have time to spend outside if I'm going out with my family. So how the hell they can say I'm a flirt, wh*re or a sl*t when I never even date or meet any guy in my life, neither allow anyone to even get near me or even talk to me esp if the guy is at my age?!! it really makes me sad and makes me wanna cry. I think the only person who is supposed to understand you is your family but what if your own family thinks that way? protective why they are protecting me? Do they think I'm not using my mind? why control even my mind and heart? I don't understand it anymore.
3 responses
• Philippines
15 Sep 11
Maybe you're being misunderstood because you're not speaking up. I'm not talking about speaking all the time, that's just being a quack. I'm talking about speaking when it's necessary. You have to express what you're thinking by way of words and actions in order for other people to understand you.
@Mysteria (209)
• Philippines
17 Sep 11
I'm really not good with words and I don't like them to think that I'm answering back, I tried to explain but when the other person isn't willing to listen I choose silence over speaking. I see that its no used to speak up when you are explaining and the other person pretend to sleep at the time u are talking. Its very unfair because after they say what they want they will never listen instead they will try to close their eyes seems like they are uninterested to hear what you are about to say, So in most cases I just walk away since they want to sleep during the course of convo.
• Philippines
18 Sep 11
Well, that's pretty much all you can do. You can't really force anyone to listen to you if they really don't want to. In my case, if I want something to push through someone else's attention like straightening them up for something they've managed to screw up, I'd pound the whole idea to them, repeat it over and over until they understand it.
@blue65packer (11835)
• United States
14 Sep 11
Welcome to my world! My family has never understood me and never will! They think they do understand me which is a bunch of crap! My parents tried to when I was growing up and it conitinued when i was a young adult. I know one reason they did it was because I was the last sibling to leave home. When I moved out,they still tried to control me but it didn't work. I am my own person. I am sure my family thinks they understand me because I am the only single sibling in the family! I love being single and that will never change! Why would I want to be unhappy with someone? Its my life and I live it my way! No one elses way!
@Mysteria (209)
• Philippines
14 Sep 11
Nicey, I don't have any courage like you. I can't stand without my family. They are my life. If they just know and understand me they will not think I'm bad. I'm wondering why they see me bad when all I do is stay in their sight. I never go out like I said with other people.I never experience to play with kids when I'm young... They fear and wants me to avoid my bestie who I only talk in the net and doesn't even see me in webcam.. They are afraid that I will end up with someone who doesn't share the same faith like us b/c he is an Atheist, who they think is a carrier of disease because he is a musician.They are afraid of someone who live million miles away from me. I dunno how to live alone, maybe I'm too weak to stand. for now, I'll be contented to share my story here when nobody knows me....Thankies for the reply
@zralte (4186)
• India
14 Sep 11
Hi Mysteria, welcome to myLot. WOW!!! So many questions pop up in my head from your discussion right now. I am just trying to process what you have written and it seems to me like you are being mentally abused by your family. Why? I don't have an answer to that. It sounds really bad. Is there any family member you could go to?
@Mysteria (209)
• Philippines
14 Sep 11
No more, They are my only family. All our kins live far away, USA, Canada and Spain.We don't have a good relationship with some of them because of issues of heirs.I have no one except one person that my family wants me to avoid...so I'm putting my thoughts here in mylot because I prolly will not see him anymore. Atleast it lessen my pain when someone listen and answer.Thankies for answering.