what will you do...

I will live my life to the fullest. I will do the things I have not done my whole life, I will experience everything that I have not experienced yet. I guess it's normal since I'm dying. I will tell my friends and family about it. I will stop working, instead I will give my whole time with my loved ones.

If he tells me that I would have a few months to live, I'd make a list of what I want to do and what I want to have, have it photocopied, post it on my door where everyone in the house can see it so that whoever feels pity on me would give me funds so that I could accomplish my wishes. HAHA. That's half true, but kidding aside, I would spend the whole duration left to accomplish what I've been wanting to do... like say sorry to the people I have hurt. Spend the whole time to the people who matters, stare, look, and touch their faces until I get sick of them (hahaha) before cancer steals my sense of sight... that's one of my biggest fear, losing my sight.

I certainly will try, to live better. Get closer to God, and take advantage of the time, to be with the people I love. And certainly, I have to make sure, my child can live well, without my presence.

I have been though with it, my first diagnosis was a suspected tumor in my brain but after series of neuro tests, my condition was classified as TMJ or something that affects my jaw connecting bones. It was a horrible experiencing and I thought I was ready to go let's say three to five years. Now I am at peace because my fear was found not real. My life is now starting to be normal. No more thinking of leaving or dying!

Enjoy life.Spend quality time with my love ones and be thankful for all the blessings God given to me.Love love love.

I'll make a bucket list and do those things I really want to do before I die. What's the point of sulking and waiting for the dreaded day to come right? I'll make my last days worth it and memorable.