What's Next?

@sulsisels (1685)
United States
January 25, 2012 9:36pm CST
I can only speculate as to what's to come. We are what,about 3 1/2 weeks into the new year and in these 3 weeks my life has been absolutely tragic, for lack of a better word. I'm so beat up that I'm afraid to get up in the morning for fear of "whats next"? It started with my heart getting broke when my little dog died from an infection (Parvo) that his little body could not fight. He was almost 12 years old but my vet told me that even if he were a puppy, Parvo unless caught immediately is very tough to beat. It takes the lives of thousands of dogs every year and is so contagious that it can be passed simply by a dog sniffing a spot that an infected dog peed on. The poor little guy was so sick and after a few days I was begging God to take him so that he didn't suffer anymore. He died at home, with me as I did not want him to die in a cage at the vets office. His death positively broke my heart and I am still grieving. So that brings me to New Years Eve. There is a woman that lives across the street from me that I got friendly with not long after her and her boys moved in. She and I had a lot in common and we bonded almost right away. We did lots of things together when I'm not working and I really enjoyed her company. On New Years Eve she was home alone when some guy broke his way into her house, raped her repeatedly and then strangled her until she died. I still can't believe it. I really never asked a lot of personal questions but occasionally I would see guys visit her. The detectives went all over the neighborhood asking questions but from what I understand, came up with nothing substantial. How scary is that?? I will miss her and I pray for her family to get through this difficult time. Such a hanis crime, just a few hundred feet from my front door...nice huh? Then, the icing on the cake, 2 days ago, I was in a very bad car accident on I95 while riding passenger in a friends car. It was pouring down rain and he lost control of the car. We got hit by not one, but two trucks (who, by the way, both took off) after the second hit, the car did 2 60's, then flipped and ended up right side up down in the gully that runs alongside the highway. No one that responded to the accident could believe that we were alive. Not only alive but with just a few injuries too. I hurt my back pretty bad and dislocated my shoulder and i'm still picking slivers of glass out of my head. (Every single window shattered into a million pieces) I'm covered with bruises but basically I'm ok. Just one night in the hospital. My friend, however, is still in. He has damage to his head and back and is not doing very well at all. I guess it just wasn't my time to go and I thank God for seatbelts and I also thank him for my life. Anyway, as you can see, I'm not off to a very good start, at all. I don't want to be superstitious and hopefully its just coincidence that all this has happened. Oh ya, I almost forgot..someone got into my email and spammed all my contacts. If you should see some strange emails from me, they are not from me but from whoever did this. I've made all the necessary changes so they can't continue but you know how that goes. These hacks can eventually get the information they need and then use it.. Thats it for now. I'm ordered to bed rest for a week and I'm so exhausted I'm going to bed now. I'm supposed to be going back to work on the boat next weekend but will have to see howw I feel then. I can't afford to loose the money, but my health and well being have to come first. Please, friends, say a prayer for my luck to change and soon!!!
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@dbell229 (11)
26 Jan 12
I am so sorry to hear about all the terriblt incidents that has happened to you. I just want to say the your L U C K was not L U C K it was a B L E S S I N G!!! I am so happy you and your friend are ok. I lost my 31 year old daughter in Dec. 2011 to cancer. She has three children. I too find it sometimes hard to get out of the bed. I dont know when I will learn to live with the lose of her. She lived with me. She was always happy even though she was sick. I could just look at her and She"d give me one of those big smiles. Just believe that your blessings will come and they will, its not luck honey. I hope you believe in God he is the only one that can help us.
@sulsisels (1685)
• United States
27 Jan 12
Hi dbell Welcome to MyLot by the way. I hope you enjoy the site as much as I do. I have made some very nice friends here and it's a great place to hang out..just wish I had more time to do so. After reading your post, I feel terrible for complaining. I am so very sorry you lost your daughter. One can only speculate as to how terrible and hard that has to be. I don't think you will ever learn to live with such a great loss but will learn to tolerate it, if you will. I, too have to "tolerate" my losses and while it's going to be the hardest thing I've ever had to do, God will see me through just as he will for you. A friend of mine came by today and gave me a book. It's called Why bad things happen to good people and I'm looking forward to reading it. When I finish it, I would gladly send it to you if you like. Stay in touch and God Bless You.
27 Jan 12
I thank you for being a friend. Don't feel bad for saying how you feel. We all need to talk about things that are on our minds. I just want you to know that God will help us get through this. I would love to read the book when you are finished with it. May God keep you in his hadns and continue to bless you.
@sulsisels (1685)
• United States
29 Feb 12
Hi dbell I have almost finished the book. If you send me your address in a message, I will gladly ship it off to you. It is a very interesting and fast read. I'll request you as a friend so that we are able to talk privately and so that your address isn't put online. Thanks again..Joyce
@GardenGerty (104330)
• United States
26 Jan 12
First, hugs for you because of these awful losses. Yes, parvo kills most animals who get it. I had a neighbor murdered once, by her husband, and that is an awful feeling. It would be worse in your case, I think because it was such an awful crime. I think the accident may be your way of getting some rest. I will pray for you to feel stronger soon and to be able to move on from the losses.
@sulsisels (1685)
• United States
27 Jan 12
Thanks H It means a lot to me. Today I was trying to count my blessings and reflect on the good things that I have. Having such nice, caring friends is right at the top of my list..God bless you.
• Jacksonville, Florida
26 Jan 12
I am so sorry for both of your losses and for all of your bad luck. I will absolutely be praying for you! I think a lot of us here will pray for you. I hope your friend in the car accident makes it out of the hospital soon. I will pray for you and everyone close to you. You are having some really bad luck. Don't lose faith though, I know that is hard but these things will pass. I know that from my own experience. I know God will still be by your side and help you make it through these tough times. I hope you recover fully soon so you don't lose too much money. I know how that is too because my husband got hurt at work, cut on a saw, had surgery and is now out of work and not getting paid yet from workers comp and we are struggling SO bad! I cannot even find a job... I really pray things get better for you!
@sulsisels (1685)
• United States
27 Jan 12
Hi LovingMyBabies..what a cute user name! Thank you so very much for your kind words and your prayers. You'll never know just how much it means to me. I talk to God a lot these days and I do trust that he won't give me more than I am capable of handling. I'm hoping that his plan is to give me all the bad stuff for 2012 in the first month, leaving me with 11 glorious months of wonderful,,,Wishful thinking? Maybe. But I'm looking forward to February 1 just the same!
@CTHanum (8254)
• Malaysia
26 Jan 12
It seems that many things happened to you in recent days and I feel sorry for that. Don't give up. Everything that happen to you will have something to learn and show behind it. These are tests for you and hopefully you are strong to get through of it. My regards to you sulsisels.
@sulsisels (1685)
• United States
29 Feb 12
Thank you CTHanum I appreciate your comments and thoughts very much. I've always believed that everything happens for a reason and that God will never give us more than we can handle, I just think he might have me confused with someone else!! No disrespect intended...Oh well, again, Thank you from the bottom of my heart..J
@carmelanirel (20979)
• United States
27 Jan 12
Oh Sulsisels, I saw your post in my inbox, but the links were not working and even after going through 3 pages of where my friends started their posts, I couldn't find yours.. I am sooooo sorry for what you have been going through.. I don't know what to say, but I will keep you in my prayers and I hope you see this before the weekend, even though you are working, try to not over do it, okay?