is this because of the smile or is this a CURSE?

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Ever got that feeling that you want to do something you really like and it just down the drain before you knew it??? I did. I don't know when it really started but all ii know its still with me. I always have this feeling that every time i say or share the things i want to do in life it just vanish into thin air. Even to those things or happenings that are already in progress are put to stop when i tried to share my feelings... Do you get what am saying? Example, recently i was just planning to take this civil service exam. I got excited and keep on telling to people i knew that i have this plan. Days after, i was in the progress of submitting my application for the civil service exam, my application was postponed because the picture i had with me was invalid. So i didn't file my application for the exam on that day and had my picture taken in an expensive photo shop(nearest photo shop). The next day, i went back to the building and tried filing for the exam, still my picture was not valid. My face needs to occupy 80% of the picture, gosh!!!, but that didn't stop me. On the third attempt and i said to myself if i still cant file on this third attempt, might as well stop because i was running out of cash. There i was, trying my best to file with all the heat of the sun and the sweaty t-shirt and stuff.... and finally... i still didn't managed to file for the exam, why? because on my picture i was SMILING. The information table told me "miss you should just paused for your normal facial expression, making it invalid, sorry miss." WTF!!! that was it... it was just because of the smile!!! then i came to a stop and finally blame myself of my bigmouth blabbering and yapping to all who know me and to those i know that i was planning to take the exam.... What next??? (sigh)... Actually it didn't happen just once, i mean the yapping and blabbering and stuff IT is still happening. And i am afraid that this 1 thing that is taking process in my life is about to stop AGAIN because of this curse i am thinking of. Is this true???