Do any of you hate where you live?
By thedataminer
@thedataminer (515)
United States
May 30, 2012 8:08pm CST
I hate using the word hate because it isn't a good word to use but I must admit I pretty much despise the small city I live in. I lived here for maybe 28 or 29 years; I lost count. And I'm so sick of it. It's just become so dull. I been trying to count my blessings so I will feel better and I get mad at myself because there are zillions of people living in extreme poverty in the world. I'm low income, don't even have a car and part of the month my son and I don't eat very healthy since we start to run low on money. But at least we aren't starving to death like thousands out there. So who am I to feel so unhappy and thinking that I want more then what I have. (?) I guess what really gets me is that I actually had enough money 2 different times in recent years and I messed up both times. I got to leave this town 4.5 years ago but I didn't get to move to where my son and I really wanted to go. However, now we are wishing we would have stayed in the city we were at for 3 years. After that we made the big mistake of moving to a small town; we were there for almost a year. Then when a family member influenced me to move back here I did just so I'd get to see them regularly. And then that same family member didn't care if we came for Christmas. That was a huge let down for me. I've not heard or seen them (my family) for close on 6 months. Sorry to bore you with my problems.
1 response
@PageTurner (2825)
• United States
31 May 12
Hello thedataminer
It is unfortunate that you feel let down by your family even after you moved to be nearer to them.
What else is it about your town that you just can't stand?
@thedataminer (515)
• United States
31 May 12
It has a very small downtown - one long strip (street) and not much more to the downtown. My location is bad to as I live on the outskirts of town and I don't have a car. So at night my son and I are stuck inside. We stay at home allot of the time. There are no close by restaurants. Some ways down the road are convenient stations and a McDonald's. There's nothing new just the same old stuff. There's nothing new to discover - no new adventuring. I thought I could handle being here for a time if I got to see some of my family and my great nieces who's mother (my niece - my sisters daughter) is the one who's ignored me for years and not wanted to get to know me. My eldest great niece came into my sisters house with her mother (my niece) and me and her use to be close over 4 years ago but now she's a teen she's different. She didn't even speak to me when she came in. I ran into her when coming out of the bathroom and then she finally said "hi" and hugged me. But we didn't talk much that day (it was Thanksgiving). My older brother took me and my son home the next morning; my sister refused to drive us home - an hour away.
@PageTurner (2825)
• United States
31 May 12
I wonder if there are any groups you could become a part of, with members who might be willing to drive you to meetings? Reading groups, religious groups, etc.? Perhaps you could find such a group online? Or in the newspaper?
@thedataminer (515)
• United States
1 Jun 12
Thank you for caring. Yeah, I've tried to look-up groups online for this small city but there's not much available. I'm so depressed I don't get much done every day. Every day is the same routine - I mean I do the same thing every day. Another big problem that messes up me being able to make any kind of plans (like for instance if I found a group to attend) is that I'm very tired in the day time and I'm more awake at night. I'm up allot at night. I've gotten into a bad cycle of being up late and then getting up late. And it's gotten worse. I've got health issues that also get in the way like migraine headaches and especially overactive bladder. I'm not trying to make excuses; I'm just telling you the facts of what makes things harder for me to improve my life. I appreciate your thoughtfulness.
