i miss my cellphone from ringing from someone that i used to know and loved
By missjahn
@missjahn (4572)
Philippines
August 9, 2012 7:05am CST
i met the guy in the chatroom last december during the time when i and my bf broke up. it was the downiest moment of my life. but suddenly he brightened it up and knew my love story and my whereabouts. i am falling for this guy because of many reasons. i love his personality and about to accept him for simply being him. we haven't met personally yet but about to; for both of us are looking forward to it. and our way of communication is our cellphones through texting and calling but most probably he used to call me anytime and everytime, night and day. he called me before sleeping and as i waking up and getting things prepared before going to work, and at morning and afternoon break time, lunch and before i go to school for my classes. my life rotated like this for couple of months.
until one day, he needed to have a training for his work and he will be gone for four months. the calling pattern changed at greatest strength. i know that he came to my life and soon will disappear. i guess it is my fault because it is hard to give your full trust into this kind of relationship. and i accepted the fact that he was once a beautiful dream that bound to be stopped in times of waking up. i made it stopped and asked sorry to him. so i changed my number to avoid him totally. this would make him forget me and about us. that was a tough decision. i cannot give up my life in here and same thing about him. because the distance, our nature of life and works did not allow us to be together. but who knows, in time....
what about you? can you relate or experience alike story like mine? :)
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3 responses
@hsofyan (3446)
• Jakarta, Indonesia
9 Aug 12
I disagree if you change your phone number, so difficult to contact. You are cut off and the friendship that I think is not good. Problems later on matters later. Mate the power of God.
I'm sure he's very disappointed and saddened by your decision. And he can never tell why.
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@hsofyan (3446)
• Jakarta, Indonesia
9 Aug 12
It must have hurt like hell. For you and for him. I can feel it.
@missjahn (4572)
• Philippines
9 Aug 12
thanks for feeling like so, but eventhough, like must go on still. we have different lives to tend to and we need to grow depart from it. but someday, i want to see him even just once, just once only am asking to pursue in life continuously without turning back and defeat regrets that i may carry all over my life if cannot see him just once. its all i want to ask from him and for the fate being given by heaven. thanks again...
@missjahn (4572)
• Philippines
9 Aug 12
oh yes mate, and was sad too. it still made me cry even until now but what i can do, i am too scared to the possibilities as we go through and in continuing it, maybe i will get hurt more. i know he was too, but better that way than hurting much more someday. so i learned to forget everything about us. gee
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@riyauro (6421)
• India
9 Aug 12
Oh that was bad. I have never had a relationship like this but i have friends who have. My cousin had met a guy online and he used to call her all the time. morning and night. I used to stay with my cousin in university campus. This fellow came to meet her as well. he was rich fellow and was showering gifts on her. He looked more than 10 years elder to my cousin but she said it was okay with her and she was wishing that he will propose to her and she will say yes.
My cousin was working part time in uni and she had to go collect specimens for biology research. She was on her way to another neighboring island and when she passed the area the boy lived. She was already communicating with the taxi dravier and he had told where he lived. when they were passing the driver said, he is staying in that area and my cousin got excited and and told the driver that she knows somebody from that area and he knew that person. she told the driver his name.
she was shocked to hear what the driver told her, he was a married man and had 2 kids and were about to migrate to New Zealand. My cousin called and to ask him but no answer.
She learnt later that he was gone already to New Zealand. She was very sad and heart broken. So my advice to you is that, don't take online chatting and all to your heart. You don't know who is other end. So be careful next time. have a wonderful day. 
@missjahn (4572)
• Philippines
9 Aug 12
that is why i need to stop thus relationship because we are okay to have it through long distance but i do not know what it should be in times when we will meet. i am just being cautious to the things that might happened although i am just being coward of the possibilities that i will just get hurt in time someday.
oh yeah better that your friend found it out before she will get harmed and hurt herself totally.... thanks
@toniganzon (77386)
• Philippines
9 Aug 12
Yes i could relate to yours. The only difference is that I'm married and i'm not capable of loving that person and told him right from the start. Though he didn't give up that easily at the beginning, he saw the change in my attitude towards him and he realized he cannot lose me as a friend.
Thus we maintain that friendship but i have given my distance.
@missjahn (4572)
• Philippines
9 Aug 12
oh well hi there, your decision is the most probable thing to do and have since it is a forbidden love afterall. glad you did it, for its promptness. yes, saving friendship is all good than totally banding all the presence from him. thanks for joining in here.
