How do you feel when today is your Dad's 1st death anniversary?

Philippines
January 19, 2013 8:00pm CST
Papa passed away last January 20, 2012. It was the most painful day of my life in the year 2012. A year after, how am I supposed to feel? I am glad that the whole family already moved on, but still I can't deny I can see it in their eyes longing papa is still here with us. I am missing Papa, wondering if it's true we will see each other again in the other part of our lives. I've been asking myself if Papa can see the tears in our eyes or in my eyes right now? Is it true that he is here been watching us everyday in our lives, as what old ones belief? Whatever it is, what I feel right now is dreaming I will be given a chance to hug Papa one more time. This is my great opportunity to tell other people who's Father still alive to show your Love and Care. To hug them for me because I can no longer do that with my own Father. Wherever you are Papa, thank you and will always Love you.... I won't say bye now I won't hope to see you again, but believe me you will be here in my Heart till the end.
5 responses
@cher913 (25887)
• Canada
28 Jan 13
so sorry for your loss. my dad passed away 4 years ago next week and he was only in his early 70s so i know how you feel. the pain does diminish over time but i always remember him.
@mariaperalta (19094)
• Mexico
28 Jan 13
Im sorry for you... Try and remember all the good times you had with him..
@dee777 (1418)
• South Africa
25 Jan 13
So sorry to hear this iLuvMe. I struggled for 10 years to accept that my dad would not come back... It was as if my whole world just crushed. Time helps and my heart is much, much better now. I pray that God will heal your heart. Stay strong!
@jenny1015 (13388)
• Philippines
24 Jan 13
I do not think that anybody would ever forget a good person, most especially if it was a parent of yours. It can pain us each time we are reminded of his loss, but what we can only do is pray for his soul and still continue to love him even if he is no longer with us.
@Razzles (393)
• United States
21 Jan 13
My father passed away in 2009, and there is not a day that goes by that I don't think of him. There are so many things I wished I would have been able to speak to my dad about, but now he is gone and my wishes are only a memory. Towards the end of his life, he was depressed and made comments to me that made me feel sad. I can't seem to get this out of my mind. I can't share this with my siblings, because they would not understand. I just wish that he would have accepted me for who I was. One of the things he was upset about was me not observing my religion. I did observe my religion, but not in the way he wanted me to. He thought observing the religion was to go to temple twice a year and pray. I believed that going to temple twice a year did not make me more religious. I could not fathom paying the temple a hefty fee of $200 per admission. My dad and I differed on this opinion. There were other things as well. I left teaching, because it was stressful, and just not what it used to be. I am now in a call center and my dad was constantly putting me down about this. My sister was also a teacher and she stuck with it, no matter how stressful it got. I chose not to do so. The call center is not my dream job, and the pay is lousy, but it is not stressful. My dad just did not understand. I hope he is at peace, but I don't think I will ever be, because I disappointed him so.