My Testimony

United States
September 7, 2015 1:00pm CST
I grew up in an atmosphere of drunkards, violence, sexual abuse, unstability, and much more. By the time I turned 14 I was one angry individual. Filled with bitterness, unforgiveness, hatred and self loathing. I had no respect for myself and had a very low self esteem. I punched things a lot just to try to relieve some of the rage I felt inside. I was smoking at 14. My father bought me a pack of Kool Superlongs for $.50, can you believe it what are they now nearly $5.00 almost! Any ways I didn't have much supervision at age 14. I pretty much did what the crowd I was running with did. So that's a brief synopsis of my younger years. I was raised by a bunch of heathens an back stabbers! In March 1986 I had 2 children by this guy who was 13 years older than me and he was abusive and jealous. I was 3 months pregnant. And I was very suicidal. I hated life it had nothing to offer me but pain and more pain. Anyways one of those nights I was suicidal my childrens father brought home with him this man named; Brad Eitten and Brad talked to me about Jesus Christ and how He came to pay for the world sins including mine and how He came that we might have life more abundantly. So I listened to what he had to say and I decided hey I have pretty much tried all the world has to offer and it only left me wanting. So I said to God; God if You're really real I want to know you and serve you. I said a sinners prayer. I immediately sensed a difference in me. Suddenly I found myself wanting to do right to the Lord. As I prayed the Lord reminded me of the abortion I had at 18 1/2. I didn't know it was a living baby that was murdered in a most barbaric way. I asked forgiveness and wept loudly. Later on in my life I went through a n abortion healing study and gave my baby girl the name "Serena". Knowing I will see her in heaven makes the whole situation easier to live with. But I will never forget her. Anyways so I'm on this new journey called Christianity. Being a Christian means believing in Christ Jesus. I can tell you this its been 30 years since my walk began with Jesus Christ and I have never regreted for one moment. I've never wanted to go back to a lifestyle of sin. Whom the Son sets free is free indeed. Over the years He has delivered me from so many things and healed me of so many things. I know my name is written in the Lamb's Book of Life and if I were to die today and stand in front of Jesus He would find my name I would go home with Him. 30 years ago had I died before believing in Jesus I know I was headed for hell. Do you have any questions for me, so glad to answer any?
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@rosekiss (30266)
• Eugene, Oregon
7 Sep 15
I too, am a Christian and accepted Jesus 40 years ago. Like you, I have never regretted my decision, as he is alway there, in good times and bad. I am so thankful that he hasn't left me even when I did things I shouldn't. I have asked him to forgive me for my past sins, and I know that he has. I also lost a daughter, and I will be reunited with her when Jesus comes back again. What a blessed hope.
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• United States
8 Sep 15
I am so sorry you lost daughter, I can't imagine how painful that would be as I have 4 children and 7grandchildren. I did have an abortion at a very young age and I knew when I got saved that I allowed my daughter to be murdered and I repented of my sin and received forgiveness. Yes we will see them I heaven when we go home!
@rosekiss (30266)
• Eugene, Oregon
8 Sep 15
@Butchcass4 It has been hard at times to just let it go. I know I should, but the way it happened, really upset me, so I suppose that is why I think about you a lot as it shouldn't have happened at all. I am happy though, that I have the blessed hope of seeing her again on that great resurrection day.
• United States
8 Sep 15
Yes, I agree I too have done some things I am ashamed of but He never left me Hebrews 13:5 "I will never leave you nor forsake you" and His forgiveness is but a whisper away and being blood washed for our sins is constantly available.
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• New Delhi, India
7 Sep 15
#RESPECT BROTHER. you are very strong god bless you.
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• United States
8 Sep 15
Yes God bless you
@owstalaga (4570)
• Philippines
8 Sep 15
Wow that's really a brave thing to do. Most people will just keep on being miserable and hate the world and hurt other people instead of finding a solution like you did. It's been 5 years since I feel I've been renewed by Christ. Difficult times are mostly the easiest way we realize that there is a God who is there for us. I'm happy to know you've gone past the dark days of your life.
@owstalaga (4570)
• Philippines
8 Sep 15
@Butchcass4 Yes, God is good! Amen.
@jstory07 (69126)
• Roseburg, Oregon
7 Sep 15
that is great that you found the right way to live your life.
• United States
8 Sep 15
I am very grateful to be a child of God as He changed my life from bad to best. No matter what happens He is there walking me through and strengthening me. I am not afraid to die as I know I will go to heaven as my name is written in the Lamb's Book of Life. Is your name written in the Lamb's Book of Life?
• United States
8 Sep 15
This right way is available to all who will but believe in Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior. The great thing is He loves us just the way we are but loves us too much to leave us there. I love Philippians 2:13 God is working in you to help you want to do & be able to do what pleases Him
@amnabas (10310)
• Karachi, Pakistan
7 Sep 15
You had a tough beginning I guess best of luck for future.
• United States
8 Sep 15
Yes, I had one heck of a beginning, but when I gave my life over to the care of Jesus Christ I finally had the one thing I always needed and that was PEACE with God.
• United States
7 Sep 15
It is so clear your faith is very strong Kimberly. That is a blessing in itself. I know myself I would not be here if it were not for the Lord. I am sorry you had to grow up in that atmosphere and environment also. It is good of you to share with others here. I hope that someone will hear it and need it right now in their lives. I really have no questions as no one needs to tell me about the Lord. I know him.