My husband would have been 33 today

@shaggin (36846)
United States
October 1, 2015 12:53pm CST
Today my husband if he were still alive would be 33 today. He died suddenly when he was 28 of a very rare heart disease called Lymphocytic Myocarditis. He died March 22, 2011. Some of you might remember my post on here years ago "At 27 I am now a widow". It is no longer on here as I deleted it after mylot stopped paying. I really just didn't want to do anything today. I laid in bed and went to sleep as soon as the kids were off to school. At 8:30am my phone rang four times and I didn't want to talk to anyone so I didnt answer it until the last ring figuring well maybe someone who is this persistent is telling me of an emergency. The phone call was from my father in law asking if today or tomorrow was his sons / my late husbands birthday. It made my heart ache worse. I laid down trying not to cry and fell back asleep. My cell phone that is set to make sure I don't sleep past 11am went off and I dismissed it and went back to sleep until about 11:30. I still didn't want to get up so I laid in bed and looked at my emails on my phone, looked at my facebook messages and notifications, saw what was sent to me on snapchat and then just laid there thinking. I finally got up did the dishes, made coffee, got dressed and am sitting here writing this. I had to run to the library to drop off a movie and stop by a friends house who isn't home to drop something off to her. That is my only plans today. I look forward to reading time with my kids and the hugs from them at bedtime to cheer me up a little.
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@else34 (13610)
• New Delhi, India
2 Oct 15
@shaggin,How sad !!Heart breaking!! I remember,you were in old Mylot then though I don't remember that post of yours. You were in old Mylot with the same username.Weren't you?
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@shaggin (36846)
• United States
9 Oct 15
Yes I was on the old mylot under the same name. Thankfully I never deleted my account although I did delete many of my old posts. I was able to log back in and start where I left off. I really missed mylot while they weren't paying. Your username looked familiar but I'm not sure if I remember you for sure or not.
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@else34 (13610)
• New Delhi, India
10 Oct 15
@shaggin Your username and profile photo reminded me of you in old Mylot.
@shaggin (36846)
• United States
11 Oct 15
@else34 I am glad that you remember me. Its nice to know that people here do remember me even if its just my name or face it makes me feel special. I like using my real photo so people will recognize me. I usually leave the same photo for as long as I use the site even if it is years. I think when people change their photo a lot it is confusing. To me anyway.
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@marguicha (94877)
• Chile
6 Oct 15
I have been a widow for many years now and I still miss my late husband. I know how you feel
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@ricki_911 (19461)
• Toronto, Ontario
14 Oct 15
That is very heartbreaking. But it could be part of the grieving, he is trying to block it out of his mind. We all deal with things differently and maybe that is the way he is dealing with it. I hope you take today easy and put your feet up.
@xFiacre (4456)
• Ireland
1 Oct 15
That is so dreadfully sad.