My husband would have been 33 today

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Today my husband if he were still alive would be 33 today. He died suddenly when he was 28 of a very rare heart disease called Lymphocytic Myocarditis. He died March 22, 2011. Some of you might remember my post on here years ago "At 27 I am now a widow". It is no longer on here as I deleted it after mylot stopped paying. I really just didn't want to do anything today. I laid in bed and went to sleep as soon as the kids were off to school. At 8:30am my phone rang four times and I didn't want to talk to anyone so I didnt answer it until the last ring figuring well maybe someone who is this persistent is telling me of an emergency. The phone call was from my father in law asking if today or tomorrow was his sons / my late husbands birthday. It made my heart ache worse. I laid down trying not to cry and fell back asleep. My cell phone that is set to make sure I don't sleep past 11am went off and I dismissed it and went back to sleep until about 11:30. I still didn't want to get up so I laid in bed and looked at my emails on my phone, looked at my facebook messages and notifications, saw what was sent to me on snapchat and then just laid there thinking. I finally got up did the dishes, made coffee, got dressed and am sitting here writing this. I had to run to the library to drop off a movie and stop by a friends house who isn't home to drop something off to her. That is my only plans today. I look forward to reading time with my kids and the hugs from them at bedtime to cheer me up a little.