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I don't know what's with 2015 that brings me so unfortunate. In my past articles, I mention about moving to my mom's house, losing my job, giving up my apartment, etc. I felt really gloomy at that time especially when giving up my dog to my in-laws. I remembered I cried so hard talking to my dog before leaving her. I recalled crying every night because I have to give up a lot of things. It's been 2 months that I am staying here with my mom. I don't feel comfortable especially when my mom would tell my kids that the house is not ours so we shouldn't feel too comfy. Every time I hear this, I wish that this year would be over. That I will be in my new house where in I can control myself and feel at home. Because of these, as much as I want to be optimistic in life, that there's a path of gold at the end of the rainbow, I feel even more sad. One friend named Jenny, lost her mom early this year and followed by her father-in-law this month. My former neighbor-friend lost her baby boy who was just born a day or two after she gave birth to it. On the other hand, my other friend have been depending on relatives because the husband lost his job for a year now. I realized one thing, I shouldn't pity myself. Because that was I felt two months ago. Sometimes, I do feel it until now. I want to tell myself that I am not the only one who is suffering but there are others who have worst nightmares that me. I want to believe that this will pass. I hope.