When will i get over him?

Atlanta, Georgia
December 20, 2015 8:16am CST
So let me start off by saying I knew I shouldn't have. I was introduced to this guy for a business purpose back in February. I thought he was handsome no doubt, but it was the fact he was very much a gentleman that caught me the most. Time persist and we started becoming friends or at least I thought. We started growing more and more after my birthday which was July 24th, started hanging out socializing nothing extravagant just chillin. The major part was we had finally came to be honest with one another that we were in fact very much attracted to one another, and i was so trying to hold it in and not act upon my feelings but I wanted him to be mine. I was ending a relationship with my girlfriend and had not been with a man in a year yes Rees_so_Real is bi. Everything seemed great, just what I was looking for in a man or though I thought....there I go always thinking. We always had a good time together, always laughing and smiling. He made me feel special, cared about, and like there was a possible future. He would even talk about a future together. We became closer but it was never my intentions to drop the panties, I wanted to use the 90 day rule. I think I was really in need of having my body touched though in ways only a man seems to. So two week after we hit this phase I gave in. But heck I felt we've been knowing each other technically for 7 months by this time so I was fairly ok with the idea. Honey when i tell you it was the BEST i ever have had i tell you no lies. The passion and magic was something I had never experienced with anyone else before. So yes i went back for more on a couple of occasions. I believed it was the connection we had shared and the longing we had for each other that intense the feelings. But you know how they say a woman knows? I knew there was something he wasn't telling me. I didn't want to think to deep because we weren't a label, we were still just friends. I think what was bothering me though was the fact I was so honest with him, an open book better yet and despite me asking and letting him know he could do the same, he didn't. Slowly but surely everything started changing, the man I knew was no longer the man I was seeing. Came to find out my suspicions were right, he was in a year long relationship. I found this out also by being a woman, I started tagging his facebook! And low and behold she came out the wood work. She contacted me I kept it classy and Lady like, but I was still hurt so in so many words I told her everything and made sure she knew the passion was there so he couldn't do like most men make it seem like it's nothing. I haven't spoke with him since. But also I haven't been able to stop thinking about him either. I don't want nobody else touching this body, it's like I want to hold on to how good it felt. I find myself saddened when I think of the fun we had and the genuine care and concern he would show me. Now it's been two months and I've gotten better but just like this morning I'm not over him. Now you have to take into consideration that this post is compressed, there was much more to the story then this. I couldn't possibly break 9 months down in a post, a book maybe. But I guess the thing is, is it the sex I miss? Is it the companionship? Is it the passion? Is it the way he use to hold me and make me feel safe and secure? What is it that two months later still has me like I miss him? Man I just pray God takes this feeling away. I can still smell his fragrance.
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7 responses
@MusesM (587)
21 Dec 15
no matter how nice he is,you do the right thing,cheer up
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@fishtiger58 (30338)
• Momence, Illinois
20 Dec 15
Hopefully you will work through this. Sorry to say but this is true...... Once a cheater always a cheater.
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• Atlanta, Georgia
20 Dec 15
Yea better now then later
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@fishtiger58 (30338)
• Momence, Illinois
20 Dec 15
@Reese_so_Real Yes indeed
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• Atlanta, Georgia
22 Dec 15
You're right
@marlina (73881)
• Canada
20 Dec 15
Sorry, but your text is too tight spaced. You should put some spacing between your paragraphs, it is very difficult to read it this way.
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• Atlanta, Georgia
20 Dec 15
Hey thanks I will remember that....I'm using my cellphone, and just really needed to vent really fast. But I will remember that and try to fix it when I get on my computer
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@marlina (73881)
• Canada
20 Dec 15
@Reese_so_Real Good! It's much better this way. I didn't want to be rude but it was too difficult to read. You will get over it trust me, the sooner the better. Like an old friend used to tell me "Men are like streetcars, there is always another one coming". (Toronto)
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• Atlanta, Georgia
20 Dec 15
@marlina yes I know but it doesn't feel any better. It's like my wall was up when I meet him and he made me feel comfortable with him and that wall came down. Now I'm just in my head and my feelings. At least I don't cry about it anymore. So that's a plus lol
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• United States
22 Dec 15
Hi wow lots of personal disclosure going on in that post BUT I commend you on your courage, keep it precious . . . nice to make your acquaintance
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• Atlanta, Georgia
22 Dec 15
I'm just real, I'm an open book to read. I share because I don't care what people think of me. It's my outlet. Thanks for reading
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• United States
22 Dec 15
Ahh a Bold and Beautiful writer, refreshing ! If you celebrate it, have a Happy Holiday and great new year @Reese_so_Real
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• Atlanta, Georgia
7 Apr 16
@enlightenedpsych2 Thank you, I had a great entrance to my new year how was yours?
@Drosophila (16711)
• Ireland
20 Dec 15
Did he try to contact you since?
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• Atlanta, Georgia
21 Dec 15
No we haven't talked
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• Atlanta, Georgia
22 Dec 15
@Drosophila thank you very much it always feels good when you have genuine sincere replys
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@Drosophila (16711)
• Ireland
22 Dec 15
@Reese_so_Real you're welcome! you have been quite strong to break such a bond. It's not an easy thing to do at all, and some people couldn't do it at all. Give yourself time, it will get better.
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@LeaPea2417 (20471)
• Toccoa, Georgia
21 Dec 15
I am sure it is very hard to get over him, but I am sure someone better will come along at the right time.
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• Atlanta, Georgia
22 Dec 15
Thank you
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@Platespinner (16522)
• Winston Salem, North Carolina
21 Dec 15
Not somebody that you could ever trust...
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