When will i get over him?

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So let me start off by saying I knew I shouldn't have. I was introduced to this guy for a business purpose back in February. I thought he was handsome no doubt, but it was the fact he was very much a gentleman that caught me the most. Time persist and we started becoming friends or at least I thought. We started growing more and more after my birthday which was July 24th, started hanging out socializing nothing extravagant just chillin. The major part was we had finally came to be honest with one another that we were in fact very much attracted to one another, and i was so trying to hold it in and not act upon my feelings but I wanted him to be mine. I was ending a relationship with my girlfriend and had not been with a man in a year yes Rees_so_Real is bi. Everything seemed great, just what I was looking for in a man or though I thought....there I go always thinking. We always had a good time together, always laughing and smiling. He made me feel special, cared about, and like there was a possible future. He would even talk about a future together. We became closer but it was never my intentions to drop the panties, I wanted to use the 90 day rule. I think I was really in need of having my body touched though in ways only a man seems to. So two week after we hit this phase I gave in. But heck I felt we've been knowing each other technically for 7 months by this time so I was fairly ok with the idea. Honey when i tell you it was the BEST i ever have had i tell you no lies. The passion and magic was something I had never experienced with anyone else before. So yes i went back for more on a couple of occasions. I believed it was the connection we had shared and the longing we had for each other that intense the feelings. But you know how they say a woman knows? I knew there was something he wasn't telling me. I didn't want to think to deep because we weren't a label, we were still just friends. I think what was bothering me though was the fact I was so honest with him, an open book better yet and despite me asking and letting him know he could do the same, he didn't. Slowly but surely everything started changing, the man I knew was no longer the man I was seeing. Came to find out my suspicions were right, he was in a year long relationship. I found this out also by being a woman, I started tagging his facebook! And low and behold she came out the wood work. She contacted me I kept it classy and Lady like, but I was still hurt so in so many words I told her everything and made sure she knew the passion was there so he couldn't do like most men make it seem like it's nothing. I haven't spoke with him since. But also I haven't been able to stop thinking about him either. I don't want nobody else touching this body, it's like I want to hold on to how good it felt. I find myself saddened when I think of the fun we had and the genuine care and concern he would show me. Now it's been two months and I've gotten better but just like this morning I'm not over him. Now you have to take into consideration that this post is compressed, there was much more to the story then this. I couldn't possibly break 9 months down in a post, a book maybe. But I guess the thing is, is it the sex I miss? Is it the companionship? Is it the passion? Is it the way he use to hold me and make me feel safe and secure? What is it that two months later still has me like I miss him? Man I just pray God takes this feeling away. I can still smell his fragrance.